I think this is one of the things which God call me to do..REST..looking back for the past months..I have been busy busy with all sort of things especially this year..is a year of busy i think..first is FYP..( year 1 and 2 = super slack, but year 3 = finish pp, fyp,ce and etc..), sec is job hop ( from waitress to sales staff to survery and now a dental assistance and guess what i am trap with two jobs which i cannot quit..at the moment..), third activities..birthday party ( one major thing cos is 21..no choice..then got to be busy with plan, prepartion n stuff ( thank God is over..))..then audible heart, ig events..competition..organising programmes for friends..cell and many more..for the past months i think i am drained with lots and lots of activites..but i do enjoy the activities..but..i am suffering from lack of sleep..so when rox share that next year is a year of resting..hee..i think it really suits me..cos recently i have no motivation to go school..fyp..and just thirsty for God's purpose for me..and i am glad that the lord is still speaking to this unfaithful servant of his...Each time his words do encourages me and it do speaks to me..like yesterday when i was working in church..this is what pastor seng lee say..
"If God is not your Lord of all,
Then He is not your Lord at all...."
At first i don't really understand what is mean..however,as i read the phrase over and over again..i think is true..if God does not rule or rather be your everything or if your everything does not belongs to him..that means God has not been in ur life..( i know that sometimes i just want to control eveything or use my own might to control my life..ended up being a tired me..)
Anyway..for the past months i do make a lot of reflection...
First: Commitment to God - to be like Ruth( faithful and fruitful)..I think not many of my friend know..but i have promise God that i will not commit to any relationship for the six months..Actually is true..if i am so busy with my own life..how to commit in a relationship? Am i mature for one? Am i totally heal from the past ? I think after much question and even how story of Ruth has spoken to me..I decide to make this commitment to God..and i am setting goals on what i want to achieve during this time of commitment..
Sec:Commiting to the family - Recently I have been to veron house and i learn something from there..I see the important of being with your parent while they are still right in front of you..so i told myself i need to treasure those who are still around me..especially my parent and thus i could spend my sunday morn with them ( for breakfast n market)and going running with my sister on maybe to some people is a small case thing..but for a busy bee like me..is not easy to make commitment..but so far i did..thank God..I hope this will be one way to show my concern and care for my parent and to bond with my dad ( to share christ =])
Third:Be Mary not Martha - one thing happen to many leader or christian is that often they are committed to serve God and do GOd's work .. However, in the midst of serving and committing, they might not know that they might be using their own strength to do God's work or they might not know that while busy doing the good, they neglect to do what was best: Spending time with God and going to the source of strength IN EVERYTHING..i think this is actually what happen to me when i serve in Gkids and church work..i have been too focus on doing God's work and being "not free" for prayer and QT that i drained myself and sometimes we might even lose ourself..busy for the sake of being busy..So one thing i learn is to be like mary ( from the book power of praying women)
Forth:treasure every min and sec..setting goal and relating to goal - if you ask me what has been happening to me in 2007 ..i think at first my mind will be totally blank..not because nothing happen but too many things coming up..and busy busy..so now i think i dun want to getting into this kind of situation again..i believe that is true tat we need to set goal so that we are busy for a something..not busy and not knowing what we are busy with..hee..So i have set my goal for 2008..and i think it will be an exciting year ahead..where there are changes in path( work or studies) and in life ( salvation etc..)
Fifth:Choosing God and Knowing his plan -I learn to surrender to God.There were times where i want to do this ..and that..plan this and that..to be a someone..to do something..everything i..i..and i...Now i choose to surrender to GOd..I told Him that i am not going to waste my next 21 years ( that doesn't mean that i have been wasting my previous 21 year..) But i think that i am old enough to serve Him..to see where is my ministry..to rise up and doing what God want me to do and to be the woman He want me to be..And Rom 8:28 says "And we know that in all things GOd works for the good of those who love Him, who have been call according to his purpose.."So i told myself i need to rise up ( finish my SOL, going to ministry team..going back gkids..going to job God want me to go..)i hope i have not just started the race GOd direct me to run..but i am in the midst of running the race..
Ok..i think i sound a be too "preachy"..anyway..hope to hear from Him more and more..=]
