*.* Good Bye RP...Graduation Day *.*
Hee 26 Mar my graduation cermony..have to wake up very early..was quite unluckly when I suffer from eye infection in the morning..thus got to go 24 hr clinic see a doc and get treatment and took a cab down to RP since I was getting late..But thank God manage to reach on time.My sister, mum and dad were with me on the cermony..the cermony starts at 9 and one by one the school of IT student went up on stair to get their cert..it ended around 10 plus where me took the opportunity to take photos with my friends..time flies..and i thank God for being in RP..for the past three years I really enjoy the times in RP..though there are hard times (FYP,RJ,UT etc..) but there are good times that I have spent with my friends..to all my RP friends a big thanks for being there in my three year of life in RP..when will we meet again ...=] Below are some photos taken and a song I will like to share with my fellow friends...
Vitamin C -Graduation(Friends Forever) Lyric..
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
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*.* We were the reason... *.*
Thank God for Good friday..for he is dead and rose again on high..we praise you for all you have done..May the lord be our source of comfort in hard time and strength in trials..cos he loves us...He is my strength and my portion forever..no matter what ...=]
We were the reason ..As little children
Be the dream of Christmas morn
And all the gifts and joys
We know we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
Chorus:
We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
Jesus suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung dying in the rain
Because of love, because of love, because of love.
Chorus
Everytime I see the cross
I'm reminded that he gave his life for you and me.
We are the reason that he gave his life,
we are the reason why the Lord suffered and died.
To a world that was lost he gave all he could give,
To show us the reason to live.
We are the reason but he is the reason we live
thank you my Jesus
thank you my Jesus
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*.* The Transforming Power Of Intimacy...Running back to God..Is your faith dying ? *.*
Pastor sermon...speak to me...to get close to God..enter to his presence..we need to recover from the lost of faith..Life goes up and down and many things do affect us ...Recover from the lost of faith..the key to get back to God to be intimate with God..I must admit that some situation do cos me to stumble in trusting in God..But God love us and want us to know how to recover from the lost of faith..
2 keys..Recongise the source of problem..be honest..
Return to seek presence of God..be humble...Recongise the source of problem -why we stumble ?
-Envies of others..
-Disappointment with God..
I must admit that there are times I do envy others ...Actually in my heart I do want to go to university..apply for NUS, NTU..but due to my financial difficulties,I didnt even think about apply it with study loan..My dad couldn't wait for me to get a job to clear his debts..but till now I am also in debts with bills..(mobile..medical..)and I am only a temp in chilcare ..the pay was not very high since I do lack of experience..but it was not easy to find job these days even my friends encounter problems too..I envy those who have no worry of finance problem and can just apply the course in university that they wanted..I envy those who are eligible for NIE..I wanted to go for NIE..but chances was slim...I envy those who are in good health condition ..I am tired of doing check up and test..though i am getting used to it..I envy those who seem carefree can do what they want..learn piano..etc..I always want to learn piano..dance..but not now..Like what pastor says..Some do think "God I feel tired and even the effort I put in doesn't make any difference , where is my blessing..your promises ? "..God I am disappointed times where I don't see break through..I run in circle..I cannot see light..God I feel like giving up...
Pastor share a story of a father who lose his faith when his son who suffer from leukemia does not get healing despite the prayer and things that the father had done..Unlike his father, the son actually told his father.."don't lose faith dad.." The son was the one suffering from all the treatment and etc but he could still tell his father not to give up..no..never..
QUestions that I trigger my thinking ...
Being a christian for sometime..is your faith dying ? Is your life battery running low? Is your walking with God getting further ?Is prayer and worship a flawless performance ? Is going to church..cell group a regular routine ? Is your heart harden..? Is the love fade ? Is the trust gone ? What is God to you ? What is his love for you ? What has Jesus do? Have you taken it for granted ? Nexzt pastor share that knowing the source of problem is not enough we need to
Return to seek presence of God..return to his sanctuary ...psl 73 v17.."until I went into the sanctuary of God..then understood I their end. "..sanctuary is not just the church..it's ourself..we ourself are the temple of HS..the sanctuary is to seek God's presence not doing everything or controlling everything by ourself..surrender everything to God that include envy of other ..feeling ..disappointment ..only when we enter into his santuary..conclusion..confession and conviction enter our life..
Enter into santuary is to return to God in humbility an act of surrendering..I guess I have not enter into the santuary due to my own pride of living and ruling things myself.,.though i can settle everything..which lead me to tireness..convert human thinking(own feeling)..to spiritual thinking..
I was reminded by pastor of the story ..the footprint..God has been carrying this man who though GOd has forsake him when in times of trouble..psl 73v
23 Nevertheless I am continually with thee:thou hast holden me by my right hand.
24 Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.
God never let go..have we choose to let go of his hand..?God is always speaking..are we the one having problem hearing him ?... Last but not least, the verse that I need to remind of myself ..
25 Whom have I in heaven but thee?..And there is none upon earth that I desire besides thee.
26 My flesh and my heart faileth:but God is the strength of my heart,
and my portion for ever.
I guess...Santification is indeed a prefect time for me to reflect...What have I been doing ? Have I been serious with Him ? My heart(love)..my faith..my trust in Him..where ?
Last but not least, share this song sing by pastor..(hope he sing very very very well hee..)
Title : I’d rather have Jesus
I’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold;
I’d rather be His than have riches untold;
I’d rather have Jesus than houses or lands;
I’d rather be led by His nail-pierced hand
Refrain:
Than to be the king of a vast domain,
Or be held in sin’s dread sway;
I’d rather have Jesus than anything
This world affords today.
I’d rather have Jesus than men’s applause;
I’d rather be faithful to His dear cause;
I’d rather have Jesus than worldwide fame;
I’d rather be true to His holy name
He’s fairer than lilies of rarest bloom;
He’s sweeter than honey from out the comb;
He’s all that my hungering spirit needs;
I’d rather have Jesus and let Him lead
God if I do think you are more than important and enough for me..I could not have envy..i could not have desire for other things..i might not have fear..worry..feel unjust or disappointed..God I must and have to reflect...Coming back to the heart of worship..trust in his Heart...=] I still love you Lord..no matter what..though my love for you might not be as much as you do...But hope these little effort you will not despise...
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*.* True or not ? *.*
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*.* At a cross road .. *.*
I have been working in TOUCH childcare for nearly a month and I am thinking if i should continue to stay and to take their course in order to be a qualified childcare teacher or to move on to other jobs...Well, I must admit that a childcare teacher is not an easy job (depending on the age group that you teach). I was assigned to K1 which i heard from the teachers how naughty they are..There are times they do make my heart boil, and times they do make me miss them and to feel upset too..Working with little children can be a joy and a big disaster..But they are just innocent kids whom sometime seek for attention and afterall a care and concern is enough to make them smile. Beside teaching them ABC and 123, I do learn from them too.
Things I learn/observe from kids 1)Kids can easily say sorry and to forgive one another easily..(As one grow older, it's not easy to say "sorry" especially when we have Virus P(Pride) in our body.)
2)Kids are transparent in terms of expressing themselves- They cry when they want to, you can see their mood on their face (As one grow older, one tend to hide their feeling, often we try to put a smile in our face despite we are boiling inside the heart.)
3)"Teacher,she hits me..Teacher, she bully me"...Kids loves protection and attention (Adult do want to be protect and recongise by loved one but most of the time they will try to act "strong" saying I can protect myself..I don't need the attention..but deep inside you are thinking if anyone listening to me..Hee kids also like to complaint but that's one way they thought they can be protected.
4)Kids like surprise..and they are curious about new things.."Teacher what's this?..Teacher how come got this..?" When kids do explore to new things..the 4w1h will be the conversation with us..Well it's good to ask question but sometimes their why question can be written into assay...Recently we just show the kids how to cook spat( sorry in short) for lunch..you can see how their eyes can be glue to the pots and plates ..if only they can be this attentive when comes to teaching ABC...
5)Kids are good followers...When one kids in my K1 class come to me for first aids(since she has a little small cut on her finger..), almost another 1/4 of the class will come to me for first aids..be it mosquito bites or just a minor cut(which look like some injuries that occur two or three days ago..),they will just come for first aids because one kids has do so.It happens when one child come to me asking me to read a story book with her during teabreak, the rest of the children will come with a book asking me to read with them..so can i don't admit that they are indeed good followers ?
6)Kids love to be praise..I remember a few days ago i just praise a boy who have finished his work quickly, you will get to see three or four kids coming to you showing their work and saying "teacher see i also finish my work.." and the kids will just come one by one just to hear you say "good job...well done.."i think from the first week i started working there..these few words have been repeating like a tape recorder haha..I believe that adult also do like to be praise and recognise..but in a different way (like awards or bonus $$)...
Yup and there are many more observation and conclusion which i think i will take time to write it down..hee should i writea book on my one month journey with the little kids ? hee Anyway I do enjoy working there but my concern is the pay (which i think quite low as i need to support my family expenses, medical fees..bills), the job scope( I hate their bathing time)..some staff( they are unfriendly..)..but overall it's a "carefree" jobs since not much things to do just each and watch over them...(I am quite scare when they go for outdoor activities)but they are still kids afterall..some loving some headache..but to me they all deserve to be love and care for ..
But i am given one month to try this job and next mon will be my last day of work..so it's time to consider to stay or to move on ... God knows...=]
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