God's Rainbow

You won't believe this...first pregnant man ??

2009-12-23T04:53:00.000-08:00

Resource from: http://www.malepregnancy.com/

Bossa Nova Music

2009-12-08T02:04:00.000-08:00

Recently borrowed few Bossa Nova music CDs from my colleague. Other than Jazz, Bossa Nova is another kind of music that I admired since Poly days. The music gives me a kind of carefree emotion and/or feeling and I do ever thought of being a Bossa Nova artist =]

Sadly, I only have a few collections of Bossa Nova and Jazz CDs....

These are my recommends:
-Olivia Ong: Fall In Love with Olivia Ong (Recommended songs: All out of love, fall in love, make it mutual)
-Various Artists: Back to Love in Bossa Moments (Recommended songs: Just the way you are (Marcela Mangabeira), fly me to the moon (Bob Toste)),
-Norah Jones: Feels like home (Recommended songs: Don’t know why)

About Bossa Nova Music
The Bossa Nova movement of the late 1950s, led by guitarist-vocalist João Gilberto and composer Antônio Carlos Jobim, originated in the wealthy neighborhoods that sprouted along the beaches of Rio de Janeiro. Creating an alternative to the traditional binary samba beat, Bossa Nova drew together diverse, syncopated rhythms and spare, chromatic melodic lines. A typical ensemble included acoustic guitar, voice, and standard drum set. Bossa Nova lyrics, before the military coup of 1964, reflected the carefree lifestyles led by the middle and upper classes. "Girl From Ipanema" and "Desafinado" are perhaps the best-known songs from this period.

Source from: http://http://www.bossa50.com/history

Pictures will speak for me....

2009-12-07T03:13:00.000-08:00

2009-12-07T03:10:00.000-08:00

"Welcome To My Life" -Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like,
what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

2009-11-30T03:54:00.000-08:00

Pictures taken from national geographic website.. The first picture features a boy with a giant barb..the second one featuring a biologist with a gigantic stingray..taken in Cambodia.

According to the articles, the size of the giant barb is relative to a 2m (6 ft) man while the size of the giant stingray is 5m (16.5 ft) which can be relative to a size of a bus. OMG !!!

When I skim through the articles, what cross my mind was that...who will dare to have this for meals ?? I know people like food to be "upsize"..I think this is super super "upsize" .. I dun think people will dare to eat them when they look at the enormous size hee..

But to my surprise.. the article cited "The flesh of the giant barb has long been considered a delicacy among residents of the Mekong River Basin, and it is a popular eating and pickling option for the tens of millions of people who depend on the Mekong's aquatic fauna for food." ...Hmm....

Hee..i think if I were the fisherman who caught these fishes, I would have 1 year seafood feast ..2M leh..can be equivalent to X no years supply of fishes hee..

But my other concern will be ..why are fishes getting much bigger ? or rather how come it can happen ? Recently I spotted some ants at Pasir Ris Park which are far from the size that I used to see couple of years ago..hmm.. I thought can this be a "strike back" ..as we know ants and fishes are small which lead them to be "vulnerable" ..Human eat fishes and step on ants for "defend or leisure"? (not appropriate words actually) ..so will there be a day the fishes and ants "revenge" hmm....

For more information: http://animals.nationalgeographic.com/animals/fish/giant-barb.html

: http://animals.nationalgeographic.com/animals/fish/giant-freshwater-stingray.html

2009-11-23T02:35:00.000-08:00

Be fair to the ducks and geese... stop eating foie gras !

2009-11-16T21:47:00.000-08:00

Read the articles: http://www.banfoiegras.org/page.php?module=home , http://www.newveg.av.org/liverfat.htm

It will make you re-consider ordering foie gras (duck or geese liver)in the resturant..wat some people call it "delicacy".. I think it "cruelty"...Recently read the article in newspaper about it..Couldn't imagine human being are doing these...But like what the author has said.." what come around goes around..."..hopefully this can be ban and people will stop eating it..

Are you aware of what is about to come ??

2009-11-16T01:59:00.001-08:00

Finally have my term break...should be happy to take a break but was rather upset with myself for not doing the best I could for the exam paper..hopefully by God's grace I can still pass with good grade...I trust Him..=]

With only two month of term break aka "school holiday" (before school start again in Jan), I do intend to spend some time to meet up friends (hee they are also busy like me).. and most importantly, to go back to club on sat (which I just did last week)..miss those kids VERY MUCH..hmm I felt really bad to be absent from club a couple of weeks(due to work and studies..)

Went to watch 2012 with two pretty babes yesterday..I must admit that it's quite a good show ..though two and a half hr long..hee..didn't put me to sleep instead it builds my interest to do research on what the bible says about end of the world..hmm..been surfing nets to find out more..Anyway after watching the movie, it does make me wander if 2012 really mark the end of the world, what will most people do ? hee..one thing I thought was not realistic in the movie was that eventually there are people who survive from the disaster. ..hmm I thought if God really were to put an end in this world, no one could be able to survive eventually...anyway, as a christian, this movie sounded more like a "prompting" or a "reminder" of the second coming of christ..signs seems to have arld appeared ..

Some website that highlighted signs:
http://www.cynet.com/Jesus/
http://www.signsofchristreturn.com/

As I read the signs and warnings from the website.. I can't help worried for those who are still considered the "lost sheep"..I am also concern if I am prepare for his coming..In fact, I didn't know that things are happening while we are busy with our own daily routine and life..

Are you aware of what is about to come???

.................................................

2009-10-25T07:47:00.000-07:00

Count down..2 more weeks to term break.. but before the break:

1 exam
1 assigment

Look forward for the term break..couldn't recall when was the last time I have eight hours of sleep, 3 meals a day, 1-2 times of exercise...couldn't remember when was the last time I went shopping, go KTV, watch a movie...sound rather pathetic..but in exchange for good grade, I dun mind this "zombie" kinda of lifestyle for 6 months...

Thanks those who have bear with my "nonsense" and
"YW" who standby me and make me realise what then is most important ..what will eventually sustain... who will be there through thick and thin...Somethings are too vulnerable, easily forgotten or neglect..concrete things, or even relationship, like friendship in life...

Gotta Jia You and Keep on Moving....=]

Footprints in the sand....

2009-09-13T23:02:00.000-07:00

" life journey is not always easy ...thanks for being there with me..."

Will you listen to the voice of truth ?

2009-08-25T06:29:00.000-07:00

Voice of truth - Casting Crowns

Oh,what I would do to have
the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

Oh, what I would do
to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound
of a thousand warriors
shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out
my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
time and time again
"Boy you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to meI
will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

But the stone was just the right size
to put the giant on the ground
and the waves they don't seem so highf
rom on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
singing over me

But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
The Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe (I will choose to listen and believe)I
will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
'Cause Jesus you are the Voice of truth
And I will listen to you.. oh you are the Voice of truth

"A song that inspires and motivates me to move on...especially at these hard times..."
"..perserve to win the prize..."

If ..only

2009-08-21T03:10:00.000-07:00

"If only I was born in America, where everyone speaks and writes English, I would not have a hard time writing it. "

Well, it is impossible for me to be born again. The "if..only" condition is just one way for me to express my regrets. I don't really like to use the word "if ..only" as it makes me sound as if I am utterly pathetic.

I was rather upset...No, I should say that I was resented of my language efficiency ever since the beginning of my school term. I assumed that "Uni" life should be a fun and exciting journey for me to look forward to (since I am taking a course that I liked) until I started to attend the classes. It's not the lesson taught in class that piss me off but the overwhelming assignments that worn me out. The assignments look more like a "Q&A" session written in essay form and we are given approximately two and a half weeks to complete the assignments. To meet the deadline and to come out with at least 2000 words is already a big headache for me. What make it worst was the weightage for language proficiency. Fyi, Language has been my biggest weak point for the past 20 years of my education. Even till now, I struggle writing a proper sentence with correct tenses and punctuation. I recalled this morning when I was trying to do a write up at work and I spend more than half an hour just to amend my sentences. To my horror, I only managed to write four sentences within half an hour. I have spend more than half an hour editing and re-editing my sentences. What an amusement !

Situation like this do make me ponder, "Where is my linguistic intelligent ?"
I guess, I should even ask myself , "Do I even have such intelligent ? "

I think I should be "immune" with my "Broken English". Afterall, it was not as if I have not put in effort to brush up my English. I remember those times I force myself to watch English program, to listen to english radio station and to do many revisions and practices from assessment books. I always believe that with that much effort I put in, I should, at least, be able to speak or write well and perhaps, I would even love English languages eventually. I did not expect that these effort to have gone down the drain.

I recounted a visit to a salon and one of the hairstylist ever told me this - "To be a hairstylist, you need to have interest in it. This interest will motivate you to practice and work hard for it. However, do note that hard work does not guarantee you to become a hairstylist unless you are gifted or have the talent in it. "

This words though sounded discouraging, they do make sense. Hard work reminds me of Rock Lee in Naruto. Unlike Naruto and Sasuke who have gifted power, Rock lee has no gift or talent which cause him to work extra hard just to become a true Ninja. Eventually, he become a Ninja, but due to his limited power, he was not able to defend the others and once, he got himself wounded badly in a battle that nearly cause him to be paralysed.

Does this means that gifting is better than hardwork ?
I am not sure...Perhaps.. I hope God can prove me wrong...

ps: I spent nearly one and a half hour writting this...again..I can't believe it...

You are faithful...

2009-08-18T03:32:00.000-07:00

You are faithful - Hillsong

Verse
Lord of all the earth
how You care for me
You have made me
You will save and carry me always

Chorus
You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength

Verse
Lord you are my God
i rely on You
i put my hope in things not seen
Your promises all true

Bridge
Always you’re with me
Your hand will lift me
My trust is in your hands

God never fail to speak to people through songs…

Flying with balloons ???

2009-08-17T22:53:00.000-07:00

I always enjoy movies from Walt Disney and DreamWorks. They have amazing 3D effects and mostly importantly, a great story plot that never failed to make you reflect about it. Same goes to this move- UP. A rather romantic story that begins with an old man fulfilling a promise made with her belated wife. It’s also a creative story when you cannot imagine how thousand of balloons can actually make a house float up in the sky and to travel oversea. (How I wish I can have hundreds of balloons that will fly me to Japan or Korea for holiday. LOL). There were some heartwarming sections (the adventure diary)in this movie and some comical ones which I believe yizi and cai yun love the most..(rem the sexy dog's voice LOL). This movie didn't catch my attention when their trailer and advertisment was displayed on public. But eventually after watching the movie, I hope to go into the theatre to watch it again... 4 thumbs up for this movie.

Get started ....

2009-07-24T04:21:00.000-07:00

It's my first week of school. I thought I should be excited and having that kind of "looking foward" attitude towards going to school. But eventually, I felt rather tense up or I should say anxious about school that I don't seems to enjoy school as I have perceived (earlier on). I guess this is the first week of school which is also the "trial" week for me to have a taste of " work and study" lifestyle. It's a period where I need to adjust my life, my schedule, my emotion and thoughts even my eating habits. It wasn't easy for me this week having to rush from work to school, doing revision, research and reading after work so as to be prepare for the coming assignment which our lecture has "pre-m" us by uploading it in the blackboard even before start of school. I am rather surprise with their efficiency. (anyway, they do expect us to be efficient as well when we are given only 2 weeks to complete each assignment). It does affect my eating habit whereby dinner is equivalent to supper and lunch is inclusive of dinner. This also means sacrifice of event, outing and some of my sleep time. The sad thing is I need to drop some of my favourite activities soon. Initially, it was a struggle for me but God has been my strength to make me pull through these. (I can see the meaning behind my baptism name now..)

Anyway, this does not mean that studying suck but like I say it's a period of adjustment..Frankly, I do enjoy this week lecture class ..was interesting ...I was surprise to see students of different ages and background ..hmm as i observe my class I do wander am I the youngest in the class =] .. I know that it's just the beginning ...and yup God will continue to be my source of strength and comfort ...to let go of certain things in life ...

中場時間 ing

你只能給我的中場時間
卻不能拼湊成主場畫面
不貪圖那一天　幸福會上演
我要狠心一點　說不愛了

說好不見　開始對你想念
我的脆弱那麼明顯　自己都討厭
說好不愛了　就能回到原點
好像是惡作劇情節　對我的考驗

可是我刪不掉手機照片
那畫面兩人的臉笑得多甜
多留曖昧一點　難過就多一天
我不哭要眼淚爭氣點

你只能給我的中場時間
卻不能拼湊成主場畫面
不貪圖那一天　幸福會上演
我要狠心一點　說不愛了

你曾經給我的中場時間
我會一點一點累積畫面
傷口它會復原　把你留給昨天
我要自私一點　才會有快樂

"it does not depend on man's desire or effort but God's mercy" Rom 9:16

2009-07-20T02:22:00.001-07:00

The 40 days prayer book cites this statement, “Your destiny isn't much where you're going or what you're doing for God. Rather, it's what you are becoming along the way- in the Potter's hand. ”God is interested in the process of molding your character rather than the outcome or even the things you have done for Him...

In the past, I do have this perception that I need to do many good deeds in order to be a godly person. I thought by doing these, I will receive more of his love and blessing. Eventually, my significant in life was depended on the no of good deeds I have done to people. Have you ever measure your significant by these temporarily things - achievement, the no of friends/lover you have or even the amount of money in your bank account?

God is interested in you rather than the things you do. He is not someone who values you according to your achievement. However, we might tend to have wrong perception of what God want us to be. I recounted trying to do many so called “great things” which I thought will glorify Him. And when I can accomplish these things, I feel assure and proud of myself. Sooner or later, I began to rely on myself to do those things and totally forgotten his presence –how he had helped me. Since then, I began to rely on my own strength when doing those tasks. Tasks that can be relate d to school and at work, even in relationship; you thought you can make things happen with much effort.

Perhaps, like what pastor has said during this week sermon, "we are all proud people and we need God to humble us so that we can exalt in his glory and purpose." I always think that fear is one reason to lead me to doing things by my own ability. I don't think that I am someone who will boast. But sometime I can feel my conscious telling me that if I am not proud then why do I challenge God strength and power?

But what does it mean to trust in Him? Do we trust God only when good things happen? Today's daily devotion warns us “Be careful never to place your trust in God's blessings rather than in God. Enjoy the Blesser--the God who gives and guides you--rather than the blessing.” So what does it means when we say we trust in Him? Someone told me that trust is to surrender. Then what is surrender? How can we surrender?

This week I went for the altar call. One of the ladies from the ministry team prayed a prayer for me. She also shared with me how she defines "surrender". She elaborate that surrender is like a passenger taking a plane. She shared that as a passenger does not have control the plane. He/she has to trust the pilot who will drive them to their destination. Surrender is like being the passenger trusting God (pilot) for your destination. Surrender is not a once in a while practice but should be something that needs to be done daily (Just like prayer). Surrender does not mean defended, it does not mean you are coward. It's an act of trusting in Him. I am encouraged by the lady when she told me this," If God open this door for you, surely he will soar you through."

“Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake?” Matthew 7:9-10.

I know it's time not to look back, run forward. I need to take each step at a time. It’s time to lead my life each day at a time. It’s time to claim and hold on to His promises…

Verse:
Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour
I know for sure, all of my days are
held in your hands, crafted into your perfect plan
You gently call me into your presence
guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyes
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart, I know you're drawing me to yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

Chorus:
Take me, Mould me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand

What's your choice then ??

2009-07-17T03:04:00.000-07:00

"Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass...it's about learning how to dance in the rain."

-we can't predict when we will face storms in life, we can't determine how long it will last..we are stop things from happening, we can't forsee what will happen next, but we can decide how we want to face it..what we are going to do about it and how we can react to it..it do make a difference like what Stephen Covey quoted

"10% of life is made up of what happens to you. …90% of life is decided by how you react… "

-sometimes we might just underestimate the impact we make when we response or react to things. Stephen Covey hightlights one good example of how our reaction can make a difference to the outcome. He illustrates his point with a simple scenario and 2 different responds that resulted in 2 entirely different outcome.

Picture with me this scenario where a father was having breakfast with his daughter. Unconsciously, his daughter actually spilled a cup of coffee onto his business shirt. With that, he got mad and scolded her badly. He then criticized his wife for placing the cup to the edge of the table and angrily, he went to change his shirt. Now the daughter being too upset with her father took even longer time to finish her breakfast. Because of that, the daughter miss her school bus and the father has to rush to send her to school and ended up being late for work and a series of mishap happens that make you feel that today is just not your day.

But was it true ? Consider this: the same scenario but this time rather than reprimanding the daughter and lecturing his wife, the father comforted the daughter telling her it's not her fault then when up to change. The daughter smiled apologetically and quickly finished her breakfast. She was on time to catch her bus and the father was able to report to work on time.

Same scenario...difference outcome..what makes the difference ?? Perhaps in our daily lives we do face such experience too...lift breakdown when we so tired after a long day at work...new phone went missing in just a day..boyfriend come to your house to initiate a breakup..wanting a warm bath after a 3 day 2 night camp and you realise the tap is not functioning...I personally encounter many "suay" things in life..After reading the above story from Stephen, I began to have a new perspective of things...and life...

"If you can have the choice to decide how you react to things ...why not taking it in a more positive perspect ? "

Sometimes we really need some " jin ri liang yan" from people to be awake.....

"I know my joy is not decided by my circumstance...but in Him...."

Have you trust Him enough ??

2009-07-13T04:59:00.000-07:00

This week, we heard pastor’s sermon on drawing line – how we can stand tall in Turbulent Times. As we read Daniel 3, we see how Daniel’s three friends, Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego being able to draw a line, to take their stand in such an ungodly circumstance. Like the bible quoted, “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Roman 12:2. In the book of Daniel 3, Pastor explores three ways how they are able to do so with the three Ks:

1) Knowing of whom you are pleasing–God or Men?
2) Knowing God – Knowledge of his goodness and greatness
3) Knowing the price – Paying the price of obedience

How truly can we seek and know God? We claim we love Him and we want to please him, we want to put him first above all things. We believe we can trust in Him at all time. We sing “how great is our God “, “We love you Jesus” on Sunday but the next day can we guarantee that we can still love him when we receive bad news that we can get retrenched anytime? When we got scolded by our boss or being accused by our colleagues or friends? Will we start to doubt and ask: Where is God?

Does God only appear on Sunday during service? Or have we not trust Him enough in earthly things? Have fear overtake the trust we have in Him? Is our faith determined by circumstance? What is faith?

Perhaps there are too many fears and concerns in life - Fear of losing job, not enough money; of failure, of not being accepted by people, of how we look...how we dress... Eventually, we get trapped with these worldly issues and slowly we began to worship these things…we acknowledge it’s a sin but we are caught in the middle… And soon we become half hearted Christian / Sunday Christian / “a Christian only when in need “. I strongly agree with what pastor had said yesterday, “it’s tough to be half hearted Christian than being either a totally committed Christian or a backslider. “ Your conscience tells you which type of Christian you are…

Perhaps we have not love God enough to seek him.” If we do love him, we will seek him eagerly.” And if we do seek him, we will know him and even trust him. Since we do not know him well enough, we are not able to know his greatness and goodness. With that, we began to trust in what is visible in our eyes. We are occupied with other belief and fallen in desire that meet our needs. God is a jealous God and he won’t allow this, like the Chinese saying “yi xing bu nen er yong”. Eventually, we need to empty these things so to be filled and refresh by Him again”. It’s hard when one claim they want to surrender and go back to God but deep inside they are holding on to it.

I always think that being emotional over certain things (relationship etc) is quite a girly thing that I will ban myself for being like that... Until I release I am also trapped in that “emo” circumstance just because of certain events and things which, after all was just creative thoughts from a creative me. And it’s really time to say good bye to these thoughts and to empty them just like how I clear my recycle bin on my desktop. (Ctrl +D). I do ask myself, “easy say…but can you really do so?”… I guess with school and work I should be busyness enough to keep my mind occupy… But this is not a good way afterall …

Like what my leader said, when you hold too tightly over certain things, you might end up losing it.” Is it really because “ yong you de shao, suo yi ge zhen xi, ge hai pa shi qu” ? I am also unsure of that. Rather than asking God why, I should reflect what is the lesson learnt? Today’s daily devotion also talks about Q&A and there are certain parts of the devotion that caught my attention:” cited from today’s daily devotion - 'As Christians, we do not live on explanations; we live on promises. Suppose God started to answer these questions. Will the Lord cast off forever? No. Will He be favorable no more? Of course, He's going to be favorable. Is His mercy completely gone forever? No. If God answered all of these questions, would it make any difference? It might ease your mind a little bit, but it wouldn't really change your situation. Live by faith, not by sight. Trust the promises of the Lord. He will not change.'

It’s time to move on...it's time to let go.. giving it all to God..my worries ..concern..fear ...all to Him..cos he is willing to help me..and he is my only source of hope after all...And I know God will regain my strength again…He will restore my soul and never will I be stumble again… never will I tear because of these....

2009-07-06T03:39:00.000-07:00

'When Christ is the center of your focus, all else will come into proper perspective.'

Back from camp ..

2009-06-11T05:05:00.000-07:00

Pre-camp: Last saturday was the busiest day for me.. running from one event after another.. first thing in the morn have to attend MSW symposium at 7 am ..follow by rushing to tya survive camp pre-run at 11:00 am and after these got to go to wan lin's 21st birthday party..the worst part is these 3 event their timeslot clash with one another ..so I have to excuse myself half an hour earlier for each event and changes my clothes 3 times lol ..cos the morn event requires formal wear, the camp just need to wear super casual while my friend's birthday need to wear something presentable not too formal hee . . but i do enjoy all the 3 events. .

Day 1: Sunday was the first day of my tya camp..God really answer prayer.. I was rather bored serving as a admin in tya not able to do much ..so i told God how i wish i can be involve as a counselor in this camp.. God heard my prayer and indeed i am one by my surprise.. and i was a main counselor for one of the clan. Initally I thank God for the answer prayer...but i didn't know that to be a main counselor was not an easy task. This was God's first surprise for me - become a main counselor for the camp.

Ok get to know my assistant counselor and clan members. . follow by knowing my group of kids..which was my second surprise - the kids. There was one child with medical issue, the other was a rather well known kid in tya -. Volunteer do inform me must pay extra attention to him..I do heard of his past story ..and worst I have other 2 kids of the same club as him and some volunteer who know them was questioning how come they are in the same group in the camp? At first, I was worried ..pondering ..God how am i going to handle it .. But thank God, he was faithful to soar me through...so day one begins with 2 suprise...and i got to known these kids.. and this well known kid .. well the usual .. i will try to break ice with the group..play simple ice breaker..and we begin with designing group flag..wasn't easy initially as the group was divide to girls extrem quiet and boy being noisy. . well then day 1 continue with briefing, lunch, dinner , games and highlight - the operation night game where different clans attacking one another territory to claim their flag..was fun to see kids having to pour water to tear down the newspaper of the defender and some do enjoy the games..especially the boys.. thank God manage to break ice with the kids in day1..

Day 2: focus more on team building..have a series of team building game..not easy to gather the kids in group ..but i thank God for the girls are very very obedient in following instruction..but i do thank God for the boys too ..despite they are naughty, they make the group atmosphere "high" with their loud cheers and spontaneous participation. Though i do have to be the bad " mama" to nag and lecture them time after time.. and havin to search high and low for this well know boy ..I am glad at least they are still quite a well behave group after all...as compare ...as usual ..the night structure experience was a highlight for the boy.. a nightmare for some girls.. having to overcome some of their greatest fear .. it also thought me to be patient and loving to convince some of the kids to overcome these fear .. when they are reluctant to do so ..

Day 3: morn was a great experience traveling to bukit timah for a fun hiking experience.. though it was a burning afternoon with limited water ..and mosquito being our "friend" well doing the hike, it was a memorable experience when we actually eat lunch- maggie mee and can food in a beautiful scenary . . at first was rather uncomfortable for the kids and myself having to eat under the hot afternoon sun.. and having some flies in the maggie mee (OMG)..however we manage to finish our lunch and take some nice picture there..now i learnt how i can survive living in rural side hee ...the campfire at night was awesome..different clan doing their performance..i do like the song alpha clan sing with the lyric edited.. also a time for thanksgiving where volunteer and kids went up to stage to give thanks ...i personally went up to give thanks too...

Day 4: Last day of the camp..busy with autograph..and ended with some fun games..wonderful prize for the kids... sadly no present for volunteer = [ .. photo taking and ...home sweet home... on my way home i actually read the msg given to me from my group of kids..was touched with their sweet msg ..i rem the well known boy writing " thanks for cheering me up..thanks for everything and i wanted to say sorry for being naughty.." i can see that this boy has grown up..after all ...unfortunately i need to return to work the next day ...actually i have not enough rest for the whole week...cos the following day got friend's 21st birthday to attend ..got class and club the next day and church work after that ..and today back to work and piano class (stress...)

it's actually a great experience in tya camp..God actually answer my prayer 3 times..and i do learnt important lesson through this experience....

Live by faith and not by sight ...

2009-06-01T22:07:00.000-07:00

Again.. the usual.. busy weeks ahead... caught up with meeting and programs . . .one after another ..God . i need a rest. . .But sadly, there are more meeting and events coming up . . and I just rec a big news last weeks ... I AM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL !!

Actually apply for UniSIM bachelor course in Mar and went for an interview in april. The head of department was nice and she did hint me of the overwhelm intake this year thus might have to defer me to next yr intake.. BUT.. just last week I rec a big fat letter from UniSIM telling me that I am selected in Jul intake and will be starting school in 20 Jul 2009. I was super shocked and thought of slapping myself a few times to ensure that i wasn't dreaming ..

Yes=].. finally able to get in to a course that i wanted to ..thought it's a part time degree . . this means that I will have lesser time to hang out with friends..lesser time for self ..for rest ...but I am really glad to be able to get into the course.. But i know this means that i will need to pull up my sock for my english language...However, I am quite concern with the school fees and exams since I have not start saving for my course fee yet ... oh mind.. got to source for assistance ..worst come to worst to apply for bank loan.. but God has been faithful in providing me with opportunity to study in the area i am interested in and resource to look for to apply for financial help.. Quote from one of my sis's blog "If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it." . . which i hope =]

Hmm a mixture of feeling when i know that i am going to start school in jul 09 ...there are a lot of things i need to live by faith and not by sight.. be it in term of financial,relationship and career.. i know that if i choose to believe in what i have "see", i will be in serious "emo" state hee..

Needed sometime to re-charge my "battery" .. have 5 days children camp at church .. something that i do look forward to ... oh no i just realise more friends are celebrating their 21st birthday and their birthday are just one after another in the months ahead ... oh mind.. it's time to organise my time and programs.. give me more time pls ...

You are my strength ..my all in all....

2009-05-15T22:04:00.000-07:00

Song by Dennis Jernigan

You are my strength when I am weak,

You are the treasure that I seek,

You are my all in all.

I'm seeking you as a precious jewel,

Lord, to give up I'd be a fool.

You are my all in all.

Jesus/Lamb of God/Worthy is Your name,

Jesus/Lamb of God/Worthy is Your name!

Taking my cross, my sin, my shame,

Rising again, I bless Your name,

You are my all in all.

When I am down, You pick me up,

When I am dry, you fill my cup,

You are my all in all.

Jesus/Lamb of God/Worthy is Your name,

Jesus/Lamb of God/Worthy is Your name!

Picture speak a thousand words..that's what i am feeling now ...Indeed.. I needed strength from God to do all things...especially these days when things are getting a bit mixed up..keep forgetting things and even people ..OMG ..i think having STM again... suddenly feel overwhelm with things..demands and expectations...a lot of tasks and responsibilities...the lord promise that his yoke is light and easy...hope it really do ... i will hold on to his promise :

"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 1We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body." 2 Corinthians 4:8-10

I want to see breakthrough .. . . . .

For you are faithful...my faithful God ..afterall..

2009-05-11T17:14:00.000-07:00

Stronger

Verse

There is love that came for us

Humbled to a sinner's cross

You broke my shame and sinfuless

You rose again victorious

Faithfulness none can deny

Through the strom and through the fire

There is truth that sets me free

Jesus Christ who lives in me

Chorus

You are stronger you are stronger

Sin is broken you have saved me

It is written Christ is risen

Jesus you are Lord of all

Verse

No beginning and no end

You're my hope and my defence

You came to seek and save the lost you paid it all upon the cross

Bridge

So let your name be lifted higher

Be lifted higher be lifted higher

"God indeed i know you are stronger than my trials and greater than my circumstance..and only ur truth can set me free.. "

Psalm 91

1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High, will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."
3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare , and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes , and see the punishment of the wicked.

9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—even the LORD, who is my refuge-
10 then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you , to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him , and show him my salvation."

"Is anyone troubled ? Is any of your faith shaken by circumstance ? Has you become weary and tired? Is there something that bother you? I bless you with psl 91..the lord has bless me with this psl.. may you be bless with peace and assurance from God that he is near to those who reach out for his hand.. "

'Life can be hard, but one day when we see Christ it will truly get better! — Bill Crowder'

Children are like arrows in the warrior's hand . .

2009-04-09T05:37:00.001-07:00

When was the last time you ever feel touched by what a person has done for you ?

Well . . recently it happen to me when I rec 2 cute letter from 2 children from TYA . .
their message touches me even though there were some grammatic mistake.. who cares = p
Suppose to scan the msg and post it on blog . . but then since it written using pencil so one can hardly read the msg from the scan copy. . it do remind me of the kids i used to serve in GKids in 2007. . till now their teacher's day msg and gifts are still kept in my letter box . .

God really create amazing kids . . and i can understand why God loves little children. . they are pure, innocent and forgiving. . though might be corrupted by things . . and some time they really give us a headache . .hee ..however, i can't deny that they are good teacher who teach me what is love. . love is being patient and kind . . not self seeking . . not easy angry =] .. and i am always amaze by them .. hope they can be like what pastor say .. a star that shine. . that has dreams and hope =]

Outing with colleague . .

2009-04-09T05:31:00.000-07:00

When out with my colleague last week . . time to take a break from work. . I remember our last outing was at HK cafe and we can chat till 11 plus pm and got to run to catch the last run lol . . anyway our next outing is to sing k hee . . look forward . . = D

And the truth will set you free.. .........i am free from now ...

2009-04-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

" Know the truth . . and you will be set free . . ."

sometime what believe to be true. . or it's a indeed a truth . . can be hurtful . .
but it's only when we learn to accept it. . then we can be set free . .
and to be able to move on with what is ahead of us . . .
I told myself never will i look back again . .

"Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew . .
Goodbye to . .the things . . that I tried to hold on to "

I have learn to let go and trust God in it . . .

God is the strength ...=]

2009-03-31T05:06:00.000-07:00

Interesting "comic" pictures that I receive from one of my sister-in-christ. Really admire the artist who drew them. It's interesting being able to share God's words through comic =].. praise God our creative creator. =]

Source from:http://www.joyfultoons.com/

Time for changes ...

2009-03-30T01:17:00.000-07:00

God has been good to me..showing me mercy and grace at all time..giving me strength when I am weak..helping me with difficult things at work..even for G12 conference, he blessed me with wonderful message from pastor nina..change of heart...in Ezekiel 36:26-27 "I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws." ..these words strike my heart..as i realise as time flies.. my heart turned hardened and cold towards God, the children, people and even my life.. perhaps I am at a point of my life where I really need to sit down and think about how I have been spending my life for the past months and how i should re-adjust before I can moving on..

One thing i am really sure of ...is that I need to return to cross again..return to the passion i used to have for him and his people...not doing things on my way or to please people..not surviving but truly living in his purpose..I know i need to seek his counsel and awake the holy spirit again... The lord spoke to me in Joel 2:13" Rend your heart and not your garments. Return to the LORD your God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and he relents from sending calamity."..I know that i need to empty the "space" of my heart that has been taken away with the lord-his words and love. I know there are actions that need to be taken in order to return to Him..however, sometimes we do struggle in carry out the actions..either we are too used to it that we can't change ..or we have yet surrender to God..

I agree that the most difficult thing to change is to change oneself..we can come up with 101 excuse to explain why we can't change yet.. interestingly we will expect other to change...pastor say when one changes, everything changes..i believe that it takes faith for one to believe that he/she can changes..but like what the sermon says faith comes with action...so currently i am praying and seeking Him to guide me to change..I want to learnt to be obedience to Him..=]

Change My Heart Oh God

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

You are the potter
I am the clay
Mold me and make me
This is what I pray

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

This song is my prayer that the lord will change me..my heart...hmm recently was rather upset with my performance for piano class...didn't get the chords right..the rhythm right..try writing songs for Him..but then everything doesn't seem right...want to play well so as to worship Him..but it turns out to be a pressure and the motive went wrong...hope to take a break this week to sort things right again...also quite tired with work life... really hope to get back to school..to apply for a full time uni..but $ become the idiotic thing that stumble me ..but i am glad to have some of my colleague who are caring and thoughtful...i can't imagine how long i can be in the working life without them..hmm i got to cheer up cos i know there are exciting things ahead...and activities do cheer me up..recently went for chinese culture camp and BBQ with TYA kids...truly trained my patient with challenge kids..but i still love them..(weird) hee...yet to get the photos updated =]

hmm,wanna share one of my favourite song and my prayer for the week..through this song...and my challenge is to play this songs in piano...

Dwelling place -Hillsong

Lovely are your dwelling places
Thirsty I come after You
Jesus my joy my reward
Your love's restoring my soul
Now I'm Yours and You are mine
And from my heart a song will rise

I love you I love you I love you
And my heart will follow wholly after you

Jesus there is none beside You
Righteous ruler of the earth
Nations will come and bow down
Name over all names
I sing You praises
And all that can say to You is…

No greater love than his....

2009-02-18T02:43:00.000-08:00

' Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.' 1 Cor 13

'And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. . . especially his love. . .' 1 Cor 13

Last friday during cell group we actually worship with this song "No greater love". .As I look through the lyrics and hymm the song, memories of how Jesus has love and dote me came into my mind. . Indeed there is no greater love than this man who knows me well enough and love me for who I am. . .even when I am not worthy of his love. . .Hope the lyric(below) will remind you of his love and grace . . .

No greater love Don Moen

You loved me when I was so unlovely
You sought me when I was lost
You showed me how much You really loved me
When You bought me at the highest cost

There's no greater love than this
There's no greater love than this
That a man would give his life for a friend
There's no higher sacrifice
Than a man would give his life
You have paid the highest price for me

You chose me when I was so unworthy
You cleansed me with Your own blood
You clothed me with righteousness and mercy
And You crowned me with Your steadfast love

Anyway an interesting email from my friend ..sharing what love is ..from A to Z hee

☂ 愛情A至Z... ☂

Accept — 接受
世上没有十全十美的人。记着，你爱他，就必须接受它的一切，甚至他的缺点。
Belief — 信任
不信任对方，经常以怀疑的口吻盘问对方，这种互相猜度的爱情就只有分手下场。
Care — 关心
关心的程度正好表现你对她的重视程度，间或打个电话给她关心的问候一句：“工作辛苦吗？”又或者发短信给她：“天气凉了，别忘了加衣。”这些关心未必有实际用途，但起码能令对方暖在心头。如果还有情书，当然更OK J 。
Digest — 理解
我们不是圣人，总有情绪起伏的时候，若对方是“凸”的时候，你何不做“凹”去忍耐一下他，安慰她一下呢。
Enjoy — 欣赏
你应该欣赏对方的一切，欣赏这段爱情带给你的开心，幸福。这样，你会爱得更愉快，不要只懂埋怨，在鸡蛋里挑骨头。
Freedom — 自由
纵然已婚，也应给与对方应有自由及保持神秘的权利。你的另一半不是你的终生奴隶，不要让他认为跟你结婚就等于被困笼中。
Give — 付出
爱情这种东西不一定是你付出“一”，便会收回“一”。但不付出，便一定没有收获。对你的爱人，应有如对自己一样，毫无保留的付出，这才算得上真爱。
Heart — 心
爱情最重要的道具是心，你必须真心对待，用心去爱。没有信，又怎么称得上真心相爱。Independence— 独立
甜言蜜语的人会说：“我是为了你而生。”其实，每个人都有自己的生存意义，不应过分依赖对方，成为对方的承重负担，甚至累赘。
Jealousy — 妒忌
适当的妒嫉，呷醋能表示你对对方的重视，但切记是合情合理的呷醋；反之，毫不讲理，大发雷霆的呷醋，必惹反感。
Kiss — 吻
一吻胜过千言万语，轻轻的一吻已能代表你惜她，爱护她，所以请不要吝啬你的红唇。
Love — 爱
都说是爱情，没有爱怎么会有情呢？爱跟喜欢不同，爱一个人，你必定愿意为他做任何事，这是最高境界。亲时不妨跟对方说句“我爱你”，担保比任何礼物来的甜蜜开心。
Mature — 成熟
为什么一班人的初恋总会无声无息的惨败，因为年轻人多恋爱的较幼稚。况且，没有一个人会喜欢对方长年没头没脑的蹦蹦跳跳。人成熟一点，你的爱情便会早熟一点，直到开花结果。
Natural — 自然
很多人初拍拖时都会把一切缺点隐藏起来，变成另一个人。日子久了，缺点才一箩箩的出现，令对方吃不消。其实，不做作，流于自然的爱情才是细水长流的。
Observe — 观察
经常细心观察爱人的喜好，不但能更了解对方，更能给他惊喜。那份心意必定比礼物来得珍贵。
Protect — 保护
做男朋友当然要保护女朋友，但做女朋友的一要保护对方的尊严，不应容许别人中伤，侮辱你的另一半。
Quarter — 宽大
宽大是基本的要诀，对爱人的错误，以宽大的态度原谅他，因为你是最爱她的人。
Receive — 接受
对于爱人为你所做的，请不要表现的无动于衷，令他气馁。他复出，你更应以欣赏的态度去接受，这才能令感情更进一步。
Share — 分享
若你爱她，就必能与他分享他的喜与哀，这是作为一个伴侣最简单的责任。
Tender — 温柔
歌都有得唱《Love Me Tender》啦！爱人当然要温柔的爱，因为男人女人缺乏温柔都不可爱。
Understand — 明白
不明白对方的想法，对方跟你说话，你永远只独自发呆，那就是一段缺乏沟通的爱情。多站在对方立场，将心比心的想，必定能更了解你的另一半。
Veracity — 诚实
对爱情，必须一百倍的诚实，你也不想你的另一半是个“大话精”吧！时常互相欺骗的感情又怎能天长地久呢？
Wait — 等待
等待是维持一段感情的基本元素。最重要的是你要与他同步成长，同步走完这段人生路，千万不可一个先走，遗下另一半在后头。
“X” — 乘法符号
把你对他的爱每天以倍数的乘上去，爱情自然变成无限大，爱情走也走不掉。
Yearn — 想念
工作或不在一起时，不妨多想念对方，间或致电或传呼他说句“我好想你”必能令对方甜在心头，更起劲的工作。
Zest — 热情
像小龙女般虽然美若天仙，却冷若冰霜的情人，除了杨过，相信都没有人愿意跟她一生一世。所以，适当的热情能加添不少乐趣，但切忌过分热情。

Hmm ..enough about the topic..anyway..recently suffer from lack of sleep due to work..this acutally cause me to have pimple outbreak..hate it..but I have no choice..however it's also due to my eating habit that cause the outbreak..sob sob..I think I am "sensitive" to oily and fried foods...how could this happen to me...anyway last week valentine day I blessed each of my cell sister with a "lovely" rose especially made by me. Hee most of them could not imagine such a rough girl can made flowers..anyway it was actually "God's calling" to make them to bless the girls as a reminder that their lover, Jesus, did not forgotten them on valentine day =]

As for update, as usual I am packed with work, appointment and classes. . just went to see my eye doc last week . . thank God my eyes are okay now. .and I am glad to be able to attend the first two sign language class. . it's interesting and I really think sign language is beautiful. . Enjoy the class =] my next challenge is to attend malay classes..LOL...finally got a chance to meet up my miss ong and nana for shopping..sadly the other girls not able to come..miss those days we shop in big group..but there are always chances ..really look forward to the escape trip..yeah..

Anyway was just clearing my emails when I rec an interesting mail from my friend. This business and marketing logic..funny hee...

BUSINESS LOGICS
Father: I want you to marry a girl of my choice
Son: 'I will choose my own bride!'
Father: 'But the girl is Bill Gates's daughter.'
Son: 'Well, in that case...ok'

Next Father approaches Bill Gates.
Father: 'I have a husband for your daughter.'
Bill Gates: 'But my daughter is too young to marry!'
Father: 'But this young man is a vice-president of the World Bank.'
Bill Gates: 'Ah, in that case...ok'

Finally Father goes to see the president of the World Bank.
Father: 'I have a young man to be recommended as a vice-president.'
President: 'But I already have more vice- presidents than I need!'
Father: 'But this young man is Bill Gates's son-in-law.'
President: 'Ah, in that case...ok'

This is how business is done!!
Moral: Even If you have nothing, You can get Anything. But your attitude
should be positive

What is Marketing?

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, 'I am very rich. Marry me!'
That's Direct Marketing

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl.
One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says, 'He's very rich. Marry him.'
That's Advertising.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and get her telephone number.
The next day you call and say, 'Hi, I'm very rich. Marry me.'
That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
You get up and straighten your tie; you walk up to her and pour her a drink.
You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her a ride, and then say, 'By the way, I'm very rich 'Will you marry me?'
That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
She walks up to you and says, 'You are very rich, I want to marry you.'
That's Brand Recognition.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, 'I'm rich. Marry me'
She gives you a nice hard slap on your face.
That's Customer Feedback

Interesting isn't it ??

New Year..New Strength..New Hope..

2009-02-03T03:35:00.000-08:00

New Year..new update?? hmm..haven been updating my blog since Jan...finally i buy my adapter..at the price of $50..hee thanks to Sim Lin Square..finally able to log in my laptop..nearly forget my password...anyway it's a new year ..so intend to change blogskin..but yet to find one.. hmm though it's a new year..actually i think life still somehow the same for me..have to work ..attend class..going for volunteer program..church..but then i also learnt some new lesson..have some revelation...this new year God bless me with a promises in

Psalm 46

1God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,

3 though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.

4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The LORD Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.

8 Come and see the works of the LORD,the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields with fire.
10 "Be still, and know that I am God;I will be exalted among the nations,I will be exalted in the earth."
11 The LORD Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.

God has shown his promises for me this year through people,things and from the bible when I was praying..He has been faithful even when I am not ..hmm having bad cough,fever and flu past week days in late Jan after recover for 1-2 week during new year ..aiya fall sick again with bad cough and flu..Got to rely on his strength to go to work..and do things that i need to...God let me get well soon =[ ... But this didn't stop me from hanging out with friends, going shopping and etc..hee i guess i am hyper active person..can't really stay still at home unless i am sick...but i am not treating home as hotel k hee...but sadly i have to miss good food for the past weeks..mac, long john..old chang kee..though this few weeks hardly pimple outbreak(touchwood)..

Well just watch chingay last sun..pastor khong performing magic..oh mind awesome...i think he is really prepare to serve in the marketplace God has called him.. anyway God also do bless pastor with strength..can't imagine him having to preach in the morn during rehersal at noon ...well since jan youth service has change to morn 9:30am..(super early..) still trying my best to be on time..though i have been coming to service at 10 am..(must repent)..but morning service was good..great worship with anointing from holy spirit...and some new songs coming up in church two of my favourite..(see lyric below..sorry pls go youtube to listen to song)...introduce this two songs ..like them cos of their lyric and the music...

The Desert Song Hillsong

Verse 1:This is my prayer in the desert

And all that's within me feels dry

This is my prayer in the hunger in me

My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:And this is my prayer in the fire

In weakness or trial or pain

There is a faith provedOf more worth than gold

So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:And I will bring praise

I will bring praise

No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice

I will declare

God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:And this is my prayer in the battle

And triumph is still on it's way

I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ

So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:All of my lifeIn every season

You are still God

I have a reason to sing

I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:This is my prayer in the harvest

When favor and providence flow

I know I'm filled to be empited again

The seed I've recieved I will sow

Your Name Paul Baloche

As morning dawns and evening fades

You inspire songs of praise

That rise from earth to touch Your heart and glorify Your Name

[Chorus:]Your Name is a strong and mighty tower

Your Name is a shelter like no other

Your Name, let the nations sing it louder‘

Cause nothing has the power to save

But Your Name

Jesus, in Your Name we pray

Come and fill our hearts today

Lord, give us strength to live for You and glorify Your Name

[Chorus:]Your Name is a strong and mighty tower

Your Name is a shelter like no other

Your Name, let the nations sing it louder

Cause nothing has the power to save but Your Name

Well both are really nice songs..and dun noe why recently really fall for Mayday's song..like ..this song..really admire ah xin how he write and describe feeling..hmm..

你不是真正的快乐 五月天

人群中哭着你只想变成透明的顏色

你再也不会梦或痛或心动了

你已经決定了你已经決定了你

静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着

而回忆越是甜就是越伤人了

越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你決定不恨了也決定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了于是妳合群的一起笑了

当生存是规则不是你的选择

于是妳含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你決定不恨了也決定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合

我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色

为什么失去了还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻重新开始活着

Some people are rather "zhi zuo" in pursuing things..relationship..past.. etc..they just can't let go..and suffer in misery..emotion..feeling.. some people often get stuck or rather struggle in such area..they believe they can't recover from it..they stick with it..live with it..get used to it..to the point they can't bear to throw it away...they enjoy "emo-ing"..it's not wrong that people emo..but for how long could one want to dwell in it ?? In their mind they know..they should move on..but in thier heart ..they couldn't....why is there feeling of pain and hurt in this world??.. guess only God can do something..it's upsetting to see people you loved trap in circle..being hurt over and over again...(hee i am not emotional hor..)

Anyway..back to new year update..hmm having my piano class 2 in mar..(wait till neck grow long le lor..)while..intend to sign up for SIM degree course for the coming july intake..God grant me the bursary pls hee...going for sign lanaguage class this thur(hopefully the class still continue..)and malay class postpone to apr le..(sian..) hee while if you are guessing why am i learning malay..well is to have malay bf..(joking).. for work and tya purpose(TYA is the main reason actually)..anyway since this month feb quite a "class free" month for me...hope to meet up with some old friends ..haven been seeing some of them for months..(*hint hint to friends reading my blog) must update me how you all been doing ma...hee

Happy new Year to All..(after my long nagging blog update..)

Prayer

2008-12-16T01:38:00.000-08:00

赞美之泉--祷告

祷告因为我渺小

祷告因为我知道我需要

明了你心意对我重要

祷告已假装不了

祷告因为你的爱我需要

你关怀我走过的你都明白

有些事我只想要对你说

因你比任何人都爱我

痛苦从眼中流下

我知道你为我擦

在早晨我也要来对你说

主耶稣今天我为你活

所需要的力量你天天赐给我

你恩典够我用

你恩典够我用

Only Hope -Mandy Moore

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

It all start's with a prayer...and the prayer that make everything different..

Cross road ................

2008-11-12T05:20:00.000-08:00

In life..we have to make choices...good and bad choices..either right or wrong track..that will affect one destiny...hmm...

Stronger - Hillsong

There is love that came for us
Humbled to a sinner's cross you broke my shame and sinfuless you rose again victorious

Faithfulness none can deny through the strom and through the fire there is truth that sets me free Jesus Christ who lives in me

Chorus
You are stronger you are stronger
Sin is broken you have saved me it is written Christ is risen Jesus you are Lord of all

No beginning and no end You're my hope and my defence you came to seek and save the lost you paid it all upon the cross

So let your name be lifted higher
Be lifted higher be lifted higher

In midst of confusion,temptation,troubles, don't let go of my hand.. I know u are stronger..

UPDATE =]

2008-09-20T23:43:00.000-07:00

Hee it's has been nearly a month since i last update my blog on 25 aug. Well it's has been a busy month for me...and i believe my coming months ahead will be more busy...well.. next month i will start my first piano class and counselling course..so my timetable it's going to be somehow like this...

Mon:dance
Tue:piano
Wed:tuition
Thur:free time
Fri:counselling class
Sat:TYA
Sun:church

Well i believe in between my course and class, i will still find time to catch up with my friends and sisters...hee my buddy say i am a superwoman..make myself so busy..but i believe i want to make full use of my time to do things that i wanted to do..though i know it will be somehow tiring...but it's part of my interest so i am going to seize every opportunity given...

hee finally can have a good rest after a long project. it's the audible heart exhibit and drama performance. well i am involve as a props/crew manager though it's not really much work to do but for the past weeks we have to commit part of our weekday and sat to rehersal and discuss the exhitbit and performance...not easy..and sometime got to stay up late..finally everything well alright and i guess we pretty enjoy the night...taken some photos but was not with me at the moment...anyway many more update...=]

Aug 27- attend my heartsaver course..and thank God i pass it..which means when emergency comes where someone faint or choke , i am eligible to help hee...it's not easy during the whole training..especially doing adult CPR..if one do incorrect can result in own self getting breathless and might even causing more harm to the person....so it's not easy but then really thank God for beign able to pass it..and worse thing was the cert we get has to be renew every two years..good luck to me...

Aug 31- celebrate our dear nana's birthday at Kbox in suntec city...hope she enjoy it since it has been a long ever since we meet up...everytime we went sing k i will not forget her favourite and difficult canto songs...and she is singing hokkien song recently hee...at least hokkien i can try my best since i has been practicing my hokkien lanaguage in KKH having to communicate with the uncle and aunties....

Sept 1 -Dance class has been ongoing for nearly a month and thank God for this opportunity to learn but i guess hip hop is not really something i am good at ..but i seriously enjoy learning and it do help me to exercise..anyway i intend to continue pursuing dance class but this time guess what i am thinking of taking adult ballet or lyric jazz..something i have look forward and the opportunity comes..but i think i am not signing up yet since i got 2 more month before my hip hop class ended.

Sept 13 - manage to find time to go sentosa to celebrate yun's birthday..this babe hope she enjoy herself =]...well we went there a bit late and we reach about 4 plus where we have pinic and ball games follow by dinner at vivo...it's has been a long time since we gather for sentosa outing..too bad our dear kala not with us..but thanks the rest who were there...i seriously enjoy it ....sadly the photos are not with me again so got to update the photos next time

Finally i am looking forward for some exciting events and outing coming up..hee i am going to NUS hall with the kids at TYA on sat i do wonder what we are going to do there having to reach venue at 8:45 am oh mind... =] ..mahjong session on sun......and the following wed 1 oct we are bringing the kids to singapore flyer..yeah...i always look forward meeting the kids..really miss them since has not been seeign them for last two sat...And 2 oct meeting my buddy for dinner..has not been seeing her for a long time =]..4 oct meeting my poly friends to balcony resturant..oh it's quite a high class one i heard hee...

Anyway what excit me is going for a holiday on my birthday..i got two friends whose birthday fall 1 or 2 days before and after mine..so we intend to went for an oversea trip 3 day 2 night on our birthday week...hee still haven fix the venue..but thanks veron who initial a meet up on 8 nov for my birthday celebrate at MIND cafe...but venue not yet confirm since i feeling like going to escape or somewhere fun..shall discuss that when it's near...

Recently do face some spiritual attack by Mr S.A.Tan...he always like to attack us with thoughts and feeling and i must admit my walk with God is still not really stable..even though i spend quiet time with God every day and even fork one whole day time off with Him..I hope i can say to Him..God you are all i want and need..and I believe everything is sufficient in You..sometime i believe no matter what we do..only God can do and help everything or rather control..we can't avoid we can't escape from things...and i believe no matter what God always affirm me JOY is not based on circum but on Him..and i am learning to find JOY in Him...at the right place i hope...=]

With all I am - hillsong

Into your hand
I commit again
with all I am
for you Lord

You hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
you're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am

I'll walk with you wherever you go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in you

and I will live in all of your ways
and your promises forever

CHORUS
I will worship I will worship you forever

Jesus love the little children...

2008-08-25T03:57:00.000-07:00

Update for the month of aug…hee it’s has been sometime since I update my blog..hee kinda of busy since there are so much happening after my previous update in jul..first of all it’s my third month working in KKH and I really do enjoy working there so far..hope God continue to use me to bless the other =]. Anyway I had just finished attended a Basic Medical Terminology Course. It’s actually a four day course where we learn some basic medical term..have you wonder what the doctors were all scribbling and their hidden language when they write your prescription hee.. well after attending this course some how someway I am able to understand what the doc write in their case note and hopefully it do help me when I handling pt’s case sheet.

Hee aug is also my dad’s birthday. Hee that day I bring my dad and mum to ang mo kio hub to see movie “Money not enough 2”. It’s a rather nice show. Sometime in the midst of busyness, we do forget spending quality time with our loved one. Sometime we neglect even their feeling and thought everything was just okay till when things become too late...hee through this show I learn to appreciate my parents and hope to spend more time with them. Anyway hope they enjoy the show.

Anyway 18 aug is my first day in hip hop class..hee I didn’t know that hip hop dance can be so challenging…got to rem the dance step..somemore on that day my leg hurt with the new shoe.. hee I guess I still prefer jazz dance and adult bellet…but I do look forward for today’s class…hopefully my shoes don’t give me problem again…

Praise God just went to polyclinic to clear my ears.. for the past months I have been “partially deaf” due to the blockage of ear wax..but this week after the treatment, hee at least my left ear able to hear clearly..however I still have to went to TTSH for treatment my right ear.

Last Sunday we have paradise band to lead worship so cool..too bad I got to work so can’t go in front to worship …and we have pastor Jason who is the deputy for MCYS who actually preach and share with us the fathering movement program. I believe many do admire him cos he is the one who actually come up with the yellow ribbon program. Sometime I do envy and wish that God I can do something great for your name too. But till now I am not sure has I done anything great for God not by my strength but by his. My heart is always concern for the little children..especially those who are emotionally or physically abuse..I hope I can reach out to them and I hope someone do something for them…Praise God for pastor Jason his idea of fathering movement I believe it’s going to impact many lives. Father is not only the head of the family; it’s a very important and influential person. In my working environment, I get to know and see how children and women are being affected by the father. Many fail to get the father’s love and thus seeking for friends and BF’s love. This become a big issue and a concern for me when I see many SM cases. If there is sufficient father’s love, I believe they will not need to seek elsewhere. But as a human being, sometime we are not able to give the sufficient love or rather the attention at all time. We can fall short easily. That’s why we need God the father’s love. Cos he is a prefect God and so his love never insufficient. But I do wonder how many do understand God’s love and feel his love. This Sunday I witness the Christian father who ask for forgiveness from their children..my heart rise a concern for those whose father are non believer..I really praise that we can have a heart of understanding and to have the love that jesus has been to us ..to our father.I am learning to appreciate my dad too. Though I do struggle, I know God will help me…And I know I can only be complete in Christ Jesus…

Complete
Here I am oh God
I bring this sacrifice my open hear
I offer up my life

I look to you lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to You Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I will see beyond my Calvary one day
And I will be complete in you

“Let the children come to me; do not stop them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these”(Mk 10:14). I saw this interesting article online that quoted...

“…for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.”

"In another passage of the Gospel Jesus says that “unless you change and become like children you will never enter the kingdom of heaven” (Mt 18:3). Why does the kingdom of God belong to those who are like children? Because children confidently abandon themselves to the care of their fathers and mothers; they believe in their love. When they are in their arms, they feel safe and unafraid. And when they sense that there is danger, they hold on even more tightly to their mom or dad, and they immediately feel protected. At times, we’ve seen a parent put a child in a high place, for example, and then tell him or her to jump. And the child takes a leap with complete trust.

This is the way Jesus wants the disciples of the kingdom of heaven to be. Authentic Christians, like children, believe in the love of God, they throw themselves into the arms of their heavenly Father, and they trust him unconditionally. Nothing frightens them anymore because they never feel alone. Even when a time of trial comes along, they believe in God’s love, for they believe that everything that happens is for their good. Are they worried about something? They put it in the Father’s hands, and with child-like trust they believe he will resolve everything. They abandon themselves completely, as a child does, without calculating the risks."

It's going to be a busy week ahead again… Sometime we really need to spend sometime putting aside things and ponder how our life has been ..as I recount ..I don’t know why I just want to thank God for every single thing he has blessed me..friends…opportunity..even those sadness moment…I learn to look to Him.and I seize every part of these…I believe God really love each one of us that we should not forget his grace and gift for us..Hopefully I can do something for Him …I

Finally got time to update..

2008-07-22T08:58:00.000-07:00

Hmm..quite happening last week cos mon just went to ten dollar KTV with my two sister since it's to celebrate my jie's birthday...well i have been to the place before but sadly i lost my way while trying to locate it..anyway we went there at night around 7 plus and i think the overall cost was reasonable though not all the songs can be found ..but free flow drinks leh...not bad... last tue went to watch magic box..hee three cheer to pastor and her daughter..they do a pretty well done show ...though i must admit i am quite unlucky to be in a quite uncomfortable seat ...thank God for the free ticket..hee i do enjoy the show and hope God will sustain them throughout the whole week since they have quite a number of shows till 20 july..(just over..)

well last thur was a very unlucky day for me..I LOST MY HP...sob sob...all my contact list..photos all gg...haiz..the "cute" thing is i am not sure how i lost it..or someone pick it..all i know is that it's gone...and i have no choice but to make police report..it took me 3 hours and even more to wait for my turn and to take down my statement...oh mind...these few days was rather weird without a phone..but slowly getting used to it...sadly have to use my dad's old phone first ....last fri attended a conference with my cell sister...interesting cos i dun really understand the whole conference what's going on..haha...sat went for TYA @hougang club...my first time leading ice breaker @ hougang club..fun and i manage to control the crowd somehow someway..thank GOd they enjoy the game..after that went to veron house stay over..meet li wee and wan lin to veron hosue play mahjong..till around 8 plus and went for dinner with veron parent..hee i dun know why but i feel really comfortable with veron and her parent and also the stay over...hee too bad the next day have to go work if not i dun mind staying longer and get to talk with the girls...

Yeah it's going to be great week ahead...mon just got to meet my church boss go shop hee and today just went for a counselling seminar..a good and famous speak..reminded me to do my reflection of what i learnt...hmm..actually i am still uncertain of where my workplace ministry is but i know God will take care and he will be in control...hee just write a poem which my sister thought is a "song lyric" this morning (hee lyric in my office drawer)...GOd is truly sweet reminding not only me but also the cell sisters..to look to jesus...since some of the girls have fall sick..hope they get well soon cos we are going to have fun on thur where someone going 20's ...busy week ahead...yeah..count down to my dance class =] hee wll like to share this very meaning and interesting song with all of you...

Shepherd of my soul

Shepherd of my soul,
I give You full control
Wherever You may lead
I will follow
I have made the choice, to listen to Your voice
Wherever You may lead, I will go

Be it in a quiet pasture, or by a gentle stream
The Shepherd of my soul is by my side
Should I face a mighty mountain, or a valley dark and deep
The Shepherd of my soul will be my guide

Update update =]

2008-07-08T04:00:00.000-07:00

Update update !! Just past few weeks we went to change beach to celebrate siling’s birthday..Funny actually just come back from TYA retreat there and going back to celebrate birthday..yup anyway we got a few “sabo” for her..thank goodness for her co-operation haha..and we went to change village for dinner..nice food..though it was a bit dirty there..and eventually we gave her teddy as gift. It’s nt any normal teddy but a teddy from build a bear workshop where we actually made the teddy, name the teddy and it has a birth cert which sound so cool isn’t it..the wrapping was ideal and overall I guess siling really like it..too bad the photos are not with..

Next, a couple of days after the celebration, I went to watch Kungfu panda with yun, yizi and mei lian. It was indeed a nice show..the story line was good..I started to admire Dreamwork movie..their movies were always educational and super kawaii. Actually many of us are like the panda Po. We have dream and went opportunity come, we might doubt if we are able to go for the dream, all we need is someone ( like shi fu) to give a little push and trust in ourself…believe in the impossibility !!..the will power is greater then the facts and reality..I enjoy the show a lot cos it made me ponder if I ever going to be like Po( not fat) but having someone believe in me and to really make a dream come true…Nice show..a regret if you dun watch it =]..

Shortly after that, we had a three day tribe camp..yeah this time the whole cell actually attended the tribe camp. I personally feel really excited and happy about that…through the three days camp I learnt more than just knowing the “ I AM ”. I thank God for his fresh anointing through this camp. The first day we learnt from knowing the I AM and it’s also the first time yun lead worship..fastantic..she is going to be a great worship leader next time…the sec day it’s where we identify truth and grace and also our own identification as a woman..many girls do has some issue in terms of the identity as a woman..we doubt we are pretty, we compare with one another.. we are jealous when others are better, we get upset or feel low self when we are not good…But God’s says that we are “fearfully and wonderfully” made…so it do take time for some of us to accept the truth that we are pretty as who we are..Later after the 2 session, we have a Passover meal where it’s a first time I experience what “Passover meal” really means and what it is..and finally the last day where we learn about unity and going off for service..I thank God not only for my own “refreshment” of the spirit, but also for the girls to be able to get together in the camp. Even thank God for the break through for my sis – ah wee and mei lian..i know it’s by God’s love that touches their heart and I really hope it will not end there but God will do a greater work even in their lives..=] there is too much to share in the camp..too much learning and I believe I just couldn’t write the whole story ..but only to give thank to God who is love. The whole camp focus on book of John and I simply enjoy the whole session hope I will not forget those important learning in my head =]..

Shortly after the three day encounter with the lord, it’s time to get back to work..finally it’s my one month in KKH…and I wonder why people since to feel excited especially when I told them I work in social work department..i guess some “perception” has been there…anyway..i really enjoy working there so far..though the workload has increase…I simply enjoy helping those who come for help..though some might be nasty..some might be emotional…one thing God teaches me is to count the blessing I have..and I hope I can be a vessel for Christ in my job..Often I told God hee I really have the heart for children and I really hope I can do something for the kids in KKH. I remember once a pt’s mum come to my counter with her children and I manage to have some “long” conversation with the pt and her mum..somehow I really enjoy talking with them and interact with her kids..hmm..God wat can I do =]..

5 jul both a good and bad day…bad day because it’s the last day me serving at serangoon club..though the time spent is really short ..i thank God for this wonderful experience…thank God for the earlier BBQ trip with the kids…that’s where I really feel myself part of serangoon club and knowing the kids there…sadly didn’t manage to take photo with most of the kids…but recall the first time I join the club it was an interesting experience since it was the first time I feel children can response differently…hee my first time facing kids who can be unfriendly ..and special it’s a good place to train my patient and to really train myself to be more “thick skin”..i won’t compare them with the kids in Gkids…cos to be every child that God brings to this world has it’s own uniqueness beyond comparison..really thank God for the experience..hope I can do my best in hougang club..(haha maybe my 12 are in hougang club)

Anyway the good new is that ..finally got chance to meet yi mian..it has been a long long time since we meet up..she is still the same..pretty charming …and I am glad our conversation does not open and end with just how are you …what you doing..have you eaten..but the same old conversation and topics we used to bond with each other…thank God for her . despite it’s a really short meet up…I believe we are going to meet up more often next time to compensate haha…anyway we do take some photos at PS since we haven meet for so long =]…

6 -7 jul.. my pretty mum birthday..!.thank God for her..sometimes words can’t express gratitude…so this year my gift for her is no longer bags, jewel, shirt, necklace…hee cos these are so call my standard gift..which I normally will give to friends and family members..this time I have brought a photo album and I do spend three night with my average art skills, searching for old memorable photos..doing cutting and pasting of it as well as decorating the album…I must say that even though it’s not really as artistic or fantastic..it’s an art piece made out of gratitude and love..too bad I didn’t take photo of the details inside album..anyway…what counts is I hope she will like it =]…hee I do take some photos of our small birthday celebration for her yesterday…

Anyway our next birthday girl is none other than my elder sister whom we are going to treat her to sing K…and thank God I am meeting some of my RP friends this week..for some good reason …look forward for the meet up…=] ..Good news ..finally I have signed up dance class with my sister…starting in aug..and hopefully my malay and my piano class starting in sep…really look forward for that….haha can’t believe that I am learning malay..hee for my work sake =]…

Update update and more update...

2008-06-15T07:07:00.000-07:00

31 Jun - Went to TYA BBQ and it was fun able to interact with the kids..it's the first time I feel I am much more closer with the kids in TYA. I think it's because I have been coming for TYA in alternate week thus maybe the kids might feel a bit astrange when I approached them. Well the BBQ do help me break ice with some of the primary four to six kids..It do remind me of my time with the kids in GKids..Anyway back to the BBQ..yup the weather wasn't very good on that day..so it actually rained when we were enjoying our food..and we got to move to some shelther which was quite a distance away..But the rain do stop after sometime and I am glad beign able to play at the beach with the kids..building sandcastle..playing with water hee...The whole BBQ end around 7 plus..Tired..but I thank God for the bonding..

7 Jun - Work in the morning and after that got to go down to bukit merah to celebrate Yizi's 21st birthday. We actually lead her to the room that was decorated with roses and balloon and also a video which I have done for her ( hee thank God she like it)..And a big gift box with all the present inside.Hee it was a rather comical birthday party hee..with the birthday girl cute cute respond for the surprise we gave her..LOL..Anyway we play a simple game(planing to sabo her to wear the dress..) thank God she did and she really dressed like a princess on that day..I thin kthat really suit what cai yun want's for her birthday theme..After the little celebration we took some photo and went to KFC for dinner..suppose to play mahjong hee after that..hee below are some pictures taken on that day....

10 Jun - 11 Jun - Went for TYA retreat..first time going for TYA retreat..10 Jun me and yizi mei mei reach changi aloha rather late..around 8 plus where we ate our dinner and went to gather with the rest. After a little ice breaker game and worship, pastor introduce the different clubs in TYA..wow i didn't know there are so many clubs in TYA..anyway after the briefing, it was rather late where we do feel sleepy..so we didn't join the rest for supper..it was raining outside and thank God we didn't went out for supper cos outside there were many horrible flies...on the 11 Jun morn..i was rather disgusted with the dead flies "body" lying all over the balcony..worst even at the kitchen's window..and outside the bungalow where we are staying.. oh mine..really a lot ... anyway..me and yizi went out to changi village for for breakfast...yummy yummy dim sum..but we end up being locked outside the bungalow..hee feel really PS when we have to call for help..and they will having devotion and worship...and on the second day..we have some interesting games a bit like amazing race...where we end up singing "one people one nation one singapore " in the public for 5 min and do chicken dance in changi beach and get an ang mo to buy drink for us...at night we have BBQ as usual..and the whole day end with videos and photos of different team doing the "amazing race" game...well..i do enjoy the retreat getting to know some new friends..but i think i will look forward for the coming tribe camp ..yeah..cos there are more familiar faces hee....

13 Jun - Went for audible heart meeting...hmm..next week still have to go for a follow up meeting...Audible heart is having a meaningful exhibition which I hope I can help much =]

14 Jun - Went to bugis shopping with my sisters... really crowded with people..but i still want to shop for some office wear...hee thank God for his provision...Finally able to go shopping..hee haven been going shopping for some time =]

15 Jun - got to wake up very early for service today..Thank God for Pastor Lawerence..His sermon today sharing about the world suffering from hunger despite of having more food produce than before...John 6:35 "I am the bread of life"..Jesus is the bread of life.. the food that last and with him we will never suffer from any other hungry ( other than the hungry for Him..)..I agree with what pastor said.." the gate way to the great way of God is Faith.." we are always hungry..people are hungry..not just for food..for money..for love for any other things which we call them "tempory"..and here Jesus informed us "not to go for food that spoils but for food that endures to enternal life.." ..If there is any greater blessing in this world..it is to have God who take care of your life, who loves you more than anyone do, who bless you unconditionally...God is the greatest blessing in our life... And I hope I will not forget this...cos often I am disturbed with other things and needs in my mind..I just cannot focus on Him..I believe that like many other..sometimes we do struggle with sins..and even some situation in life..where we know the simple answer to these is..a prayer and a cry to our abba father...but we just forget..or rather struggle..

Recently, i listen to pastor's joseph prince's sermon..from the cd which was given when me going to Hillsong concert..pastor joseph share about the greatest story in the bible.."the lost son" find in luke 15:11 -31...the way he share this parable was really good..it makes me have a sec thought about this story..and I just realise..oh no I can I not know such great love of the Father...As i listen to the sermon..i couldn't help thank God and worship Him for his goodness... (Will share more with the girls on cell hee)..

Anyway back to pastor's lawerence sermon.. I think pastor do share some remarkable quote and question which I feel like writing it here..

1) Are you seeking God or seeking experience ?

2) U don't have to do anything to earn God's love..His love is a gift ...

3) Don't ask God for ministry, for nation etc..Believe that He has and will bless you..

4)The gate way to the great way of God is Faith..

5)To overcome hungry is to be hungry for God..(when you are hungry for God..he filled and remove all the other hunger..

How many times do we have to break his heart ?

How many times do our heart has to be wound ?

How many times do we have to lose our way ?

How many times do we have to be reminded of the way ?

How many times do we have to remind ourself never to sin again?

How many times ..then we can be awake?

I often ask myself these questions..when ur loved one break your heart..the pain is the same as the time we break His heart...Hee that's the way I remind myself of God's love and warn myself..hee don't break his heart...And God is teaching me only his love can fill my other hunger...I think I really need to learn this lesson....thank God for that...

Today is father's day..not only for our earthly father..but for GOd our heavenly father..HAPPY FATHER'S DAY =]

Hee like to dedicate this song to reader...This song ..the first time i hear it was three four years ago..hee sound "old" but it do remind me ..of "You, God"..

"How Could I Live" - Hillsong

How could I live without You

How could I surviveWithout Your love

Without Your touch

You're the One that heals me

And cleanses my heart

And sets me free

Now i come right before You

With my hands lifted up

With my heart humbly bowed

At Your work on the cross

As You hang there and die

You were paying the price

For my life, For my life

For Your love is higher than the heavens

Deeper than the seas

And all I want is You in my life

No one else can satisfy my soul

Can make me feel this way

Only You Lord, only You

Update part 2...

2008-05-29T04:15:00.000-07:00

Ok before veron going to scold me for missing the update part on our outing hee..i got to post this..haha..anyway last week went out with veron at far east and PS to buy wan lin's birthday gift..well it has been a long time since i met her..so we meet on one of her off day to shop for lin's gift...hee this veron mei mei seemed to have grown up..now no longer call mei mei but miss tan arld lol...anyway know that she at least got her dream job..hee so do I..at least got in to what i want to do...though initially i thought me and veron might work in same company(since i apply for that too.) , But i know God has planned for me...so yup..back to shopping that day ..yup so we went to hunt present for her..this wan lin girl girl really give us a headache when comes to buy things for her..hee but thankfully, we bought something for her..and i think she will sure love it..haha..yup after buying the present me and veron went to eat potato menta hee...in r=waraku...yummy..i really love potato menta ..it tasted really good..and imagine the place was quite empty..like we book the whole resturant..so we eat and take photos using her digital camera..oh my i really hope to have one when i got my pay =P...hee below are some of the pictures...hope we can meet up often babe...anyway..we are attending music school together in first few weeks of Jul...look forward for that =]...

First day of work.

2008-05-28T07:16:00.000-07:00

First day of work...

26 May – First Day of work in KK hospital. For your inform, I am working as an assistance social worker. Initially don’t really get used to get up early since I start work at 8:30am. Also, I got to wear formal wear every weekday. Being used to wearing short pants and t-shirt, I do really feel “old” and uncomfortable. But slowly get used to it. First day of work, I got to know all my colleagues working at MSW department (MSW –medical social work) followed by some little simple introduction of my job scope and etc. Basically, I need to attend to patient, who come to our department for assistance and can be all sort of assistance (such as finance etc). Also, I got to go for home visit, get to learn how their system works and other general task. I remember I told God I want to do something; I want to make a different. And I really thank God for this opportunity to work as social work assistance. I remember I did apply once at TTSH but fail and now I got the opportunity again. There are many different types of cases and I thank God for giving me something special and challenging for me. In fact I am working with cases related to child abuse, single mum etc.

Though it’s not going to be easy, I know I am Gabriela (God is my strength) and I believe I really need God to be my strength for my workplace. Anyway, for those who don’t know my baptism name is Gabriela =] and my colleague they called me that name. Though some prefer to call me rainbow, chye hong, Doreen, I still prefer all to call me Gabriela to remind me God is my strength. My colleague are quite friendly, my supervisor who is also my trainer is very patient in teaching me the task I need to learnt and she teaches me really slowly which I don’t think many trainer will be that patient. Also, they got me a lunch buddy so that I won’t be eating alone =]. My lunch buddy is friendly person too. I also got a working partner whom we share workload together. One interesting thing is that her name is a bit “rhythm” with my name. During my training, I got to read different cases and I am shocked to realize that there are quite handfuls that need help in our society. Some “dramatic” stories on TV do actually happen in real life. As I read cases by cases, I do thank God for what I have and really hope I can help them. But since I am not social worker I cannot really go in dept in helping. However, I am going to apply for part time degree in social work next year =). Besides reading cases, I also got the opportunity to go home visit with my supervisor. Sometime we might not appreciate or be contended with what we have until we realize how blessed we are. This is what I can conclude from home visit. Today is my third day in KKH MSW hope that I can quick pick up things =].

Hmm..haven been seeing my ploy friends for sometime…got to meet up with them soon.
Last Friday, I got to celebrate Kala’s 21st birthday with siling, yizi and yun. We meet early to set up the birthday picnic at esplanade root top. We decorate with roses, cotton wool and light stick. And we bought her a princess balloon, a tin box with our photo on it, a small bouquet of roses, a cake and a necklace engraved with her name. Hee we meet her at city hall and do a little sabo before we bring her to the romantic birthday picnic. And she seemed to be really happy with our master piece. After that we went for dinner and took photos. Below are the photos taken on her birthday:

Look forward for coming events in Jun:
- Yizi’s 21st Birthday
- TYA retreat
- Piano Lesson

The God Chasers seminar with Tommy Tenney..

2008-05-12T02:41:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, I am glad to attend Tommy Tenney's God Chasers Seminar. God has used Pastor Tommy to speak to us. I thank God for attending the talk. I learn quite a few things throught the three session of the seminar and also the sunday service when he was invited to be the special guest. Hee I must say that the whole session on saturday and the preaching he shared on sunday seemed to be too short for me..I think he really make us thirsty for the Lord. God's presence was so strong on saturday.

First Session:
The first session he taught us to be thristy for jesus. I like the way he use real life situation as a example to preach and share God's words. He said that he wants to be like the waiter who introduce a specific dish and make the customer hunger for that dish. He want us to be like the customer thirsty and hungry for God. In fact, I agree with him that being a christian we are too easy satisfy when comes to asking and encountering God. Rather than saying "oh God touch me and comfort me on sunday service which i think is enough.." we should say "oh God thanks for touching and comforting me on service but i believe i am still thirsty of your words and truth, Lord i am not going to stop asking more of you the next service even right now hee.."..

"Taste and see that the Lord is good"..how much God can give depend on how much you thrist for him. And pastor even correct our attitude towards memorizing of verse. He said that the purpose of memorizing the words is to be useful to reach God's destiny and direction just as he give example of his wife asking direction from a passenger and memorizing it for the sake of reaching the specific place she wants to go. Are you memorizing verse for the correct motive and purpose ?Next pastor even let us ponder how we have been too busy with singing and praising,saying " God, I do miss you, God you are mighty and lovely" but not knowing that God is just beside you saying "hello dear, Yes I am here" ..Have we miss the encounter with God when he is just in the midst of us ?

The next interesting point pastor tommy share in 2 king 4:3 when the widow is call to collect EMPTY container. verse 3-"Then he said, "Go and borrow empty containers from everyone—from all your neighbors. Do not get just a few." why collect empty container? I do ask this question when i read this verse ..the answer is found in the next verses - After she had shut the door behind her and her sons, they kept bringing her [containers], and she kept pouring. v6 When they were full, she said to her son, "Bring me another container."But he replied, "There aren't any more." Then the oil stopped.v7 She went and told the man of God, and he said, "Go sell the oil and pay your debt; you and your sons can live on the rest." The empty container are filled with oil and plenty supply of oil. In life, God wants to bless us just as how he bless the widow in 2 king 4. However God cannot bring blessing upon us when our life are too FULL with things- burden, career, money, relationship, worries..God can only bring drops of blessing to the full container. Only empty container he can pour blessing and many more but blessing is determine by the no of empty container you give. Just like the widow the oil stopped when there aren't any more container. How many container will you give to God ? how it is to be empty? to be empty is when you feel that you can really do nothing about anything, anything is no longer what you can do and nothing you can trust anymore and you shout "Jesus, Jesus.." Emptiness is when you do not let anything except Jesus to fill what you lack of in ur life(career,relationship).Another words: Stop filling your emptines with other things..Are you willing to be empty for God's blessing ?

One remark statement pastor tommy said that really make me ponder:

"Don't let Jesus being so close to you yet pass-by you. "

I remember this stories pastor tommy share where there is a blind man who hear Jesus coming to the street performing healing and he actually shout in the street , calling "jesus, jesus"..while his friends thinking why is he doing so? The blind man actually wants to catch Jesus's attention and since he cannot see where he is, he can only shout his name hoping Jesus can hear and come to him. Are you like the blind man being so desperate for Jesus? Don't let Jesus being so close to you yet pass by you...

Sec and third Session:
The first session was so power and thank God for his awesome presence..For the sec and third session. Pastor tommy share the glory of God and he define church being a box for God..and teaches us to understand the word "glory" so that we will not use it improperly. There were some role play during this session..interesting how he teaches using role play that actually caught our attention =]. The third session pastor tommy teach us book of john 11:5 where we learnt in life we have to be half "mary and martha" ..we know in the bible..mary has a heart for God where she can spend times to pray to God while martha has the heart for people where she choose to serve the in needs. We cannot be just mary where we pray to God , spending time reading his words but not doing it..How can we love God who we can't see when we can't even love our brothers/sisters whom we can see?? However, we cannot be just martha serving and giving but not receiving the food( God's words) ..We have to be half martha and mary ..how ? when Jesus is in the house(church etc),be like mary- worship, praise and read his words..when we are out there(in the workplace etc) be like martha-serve the needs, reflect christ-like to the people. ..

what an interesting seminar with pastor tommy..I thank God for that.

Service on Sunday- One night with the king..
Book of Esther 2:15 -17 ..Esther won favor from everyone..Esther won favor from the king..Pastor tommy shares that in life, we cannot please everyone in fact and we are not going to have everyone to like us.in fact we don't need everyone to like us. If the king(God) like us, t doesn't matter who else don't like us. And he highlighted "Never underestimate the potential of one encounter" and there were other remarkable statement which i found in Pastor's tommy website and I would like to share the 12 protocol of palace here:

Just like Esther, her one encounter with the king change her destiny and her life.
Why Esther and not the other ladies ? What made Esther so special that she gain favor from the king ? From Book of Esther we see in verse 12: Before a girl's turn came to go in to King Xerxes, she had to complete twelve months of beauty treatments prescribed for the women, six months with oil of myrrh and six with perfumes and cosmetics. She prepare herself for the king. Unlike the other ladies who will tells the kings what they like (verse 13Then thus came every maiden unto the king; whatsoever she desired was given her to go with her out of the house of the women unto the king's house. ), Esther only get what the king delight (v15 she required nothing but what Hegai the king's chamberlain, the keeper of the women, appointed.)

So you want to gain favor from the king..rather than telling the king what you like or dislike, shouldn't we listen to what the king like or dislike so as to gain his favor? One point pastor tommy share what the king delight: Garment of Praise/worship. Praise/worship him not only when we feel like..not only when you are blessed something good in life..Let praises/worship be a good habit..praise/worship be on the lips even when trials come ..praises/worship not based on emotion or feeling...Because Praise/Worship can control your destiny.

It was a great teaching from pastor tommy..how God has blessed him..due to time constraint, we only get to hear part of the story ( i think the book is title" finding favor with the king"..I am going get one copies). But i thank God cos this sunday service the atmosphere was a little bit different..God's presence was powerful..everyone was worshipping freely and in spirit..Wow..hope everyday the same worship spirit is that..I really enjoy the sunday service last week..thank God mandy was there to join us for the service too..hope to see her next week with li wee as yun not working so all of us will be attending service together =]..

Cute comic ..hee

2008-05-12T02:22:00.001-07:00

Science and God

2008-05-12T01:44:00.000-07:00

Interesting story shared by my friend. So share this at my blog..hee

Science and God

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist
professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his
new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a
moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you
can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if
you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He
doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even
though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can
you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student : 'From...God...'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there
evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,
correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created
everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to
the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:
'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible
things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his
question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the
lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is
mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in
Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you
use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen
Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or
smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable
protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,
son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem
science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a
question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.
The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,
mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we
don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below
zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is
no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when
it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have
or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.
You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of
heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units
because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom,
sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as
darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night
if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the
absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have
Nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to
define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able
to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.
This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is
flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.
'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student
explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good
God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something
finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much
less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life
is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive
thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they
evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young
man, yes, of course I do'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he
realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work
and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you
not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a
preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the
Commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other
student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class
who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into
laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain,
felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No
one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of
empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no
brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,
how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the
student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I
guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists
with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We
see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.
It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.
These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at
least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe
the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when
man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold
that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there
is no light.'

The professor sat down.

Update update haha...

2008-05-08T23:29:00.000-07:00

Well for the past weeks have not been updating my blog..hee just to keep my friends update on what i have been doing hee..besides looking for jobs..going to countless interview, i also got chance to meet up with some of my friends whom i have not been seeing for sometime due to work and other stuff..one good news to share...

I HAVE PASSED MY ENGLISH EPT EXAM!!!

thank God for that..well at first i thought i am going to fail the exam cos i didn't really perform the best that i could..but thank God for his mercy and grace..I PASSED !!well it was quite scary cos they actually send me the result via mail..i always dun like the feeling of getting the result through mail due to past experience..but thank God for the good news..hee funny it took me some time to open the mail not because the mail was stick with super glue but cos of some emotional struggles..haha..but thank God for the chance..now i can apply for NIE ..cos last time their min requirement is a b3for english which i dun have..so got to take this exam..but then..i still have to wait for their call for interview..it's not a sure thing that i can get in NIE unless God's call me...but now at least i know there is chance..i have sign up for NIE and wait for their call..excited but not sure if it's really the direction i want..But these few days have been reading books about effective teaching, counselling in school, discipline without cry, effective guides for new teacher..find that those books are interesting and i enjoy reading it...while waiting and finding jobs...

Anyway now i got two jobs offer..one is assistance social worker at KK hospital..something that i hope to try while waiting for NIE..the other is a student care teacher job in YMCA..somewhat like TOUCH childcare..but this time i am dealing with the primary school kids..job scope about the same..but one bad things is the workplace is a SEMBAWANG..oh my goodness...imagine the traveling distance..though the time is flexible..the location is really a concern for me..well thank God at least both job is something that i am interested to do ..(rather than admin..i cannot ...)but i have not decide which to choose..asking for God's direction..but most prob the social work job as to gain experience..and really want to know how the job scope as social work is..while waiting for NIE...anyway still got sometime to choose =]..

anyway last sunday went to some interesting metro and MPH fair at expo after service ..and i get to see this book..about baby name and character...hee i saw my baptism name and it says -

Gabriela : a quiet charmer. People think she's completely angelic and sincere.They find her to be carefree, charming and bubbly in an unassuming way. She's describe as a leggy pretty brunette(woman with dark hair) with a dark complexion.

Hee when i look for etania this name the character..i couldn't find it..I guess God really has a wonderful plan for everything even my name sound so much like my personality..hee..amazing..well this weeks is appreciation week..I have been busy doing art and craft to some of my loved ones..and below is some of my art piece..not all..hee no time to take photo for all..thank God for the ideas and it was when i see my sister doing art craft for her cell sister birthday then it makes me feel like doing something for my loved ones too..hee so ya..

oh mind coming may till jul is going to be crazy months..with so many birthday,wedding coming up..some going 21 and some the twenties...oh no...got to save and prepare..sorry to treat my blog as calendar...

may - li rong, wen lian birthday
may 24 - kala 21st birthday celebration
jun 5 - yizi 21st
jun 7 - wan lin 20 birthday celebration
jun 14 - ling's wedding
jun 21 - siling birthday
jul - mum's birthday,da jie, li wee birthday

and more events coming up..tommy seminar..global prayer..muar trip..prayer ..young arrow retreat,fund raising ..hillsong concert.. service learning in lan zhou..hee life is so fun with events..birthday and gathering with friends...but it's going to be busy especially when start working...jia you gabriela..hee =]and also rest of my friends who are working..jia you =] and must meet up ok..

hee to all this is the photo taken during my baptism..the water is so cold hee

Baptism day - 28 April 200 8..Gabriela is my name=]

2008-04-28T00:59:00.000-07:00

Well,most of you do know that I have been baptism on last friday. Hee after so many years of waiting and skipping and pondering...I finally got myself in the baptism pool..A mixure of feeling..happy ..excited( since it's a significant day) ..worried( if they can pull me up from the pool..)well...even though in the end i was not selected to share the testimony on stage..I believe that the other candidate do have interesting and powerful testimonies..( that does not mean mine is not powerful haha)..and hee interestingly i got a few surprise on that day..firstly, all the candidates are supposed to put down their bags somewhere near the pool..so I find a place to put my bag where I saw a bouquet of flowers and a gift box..it caught my eyes as I was thinking who is the owner of these ...flowers..so nice...hee..Later when we are suppose to queue according to the baptism no, I was surprise to see my boss passing that bouquet of flower and gift box to me..little did i know that it was a present for my baptism. Hee so sweet of them..that's the first surprise..the second surprise was that i was told that i am the last candidate to be in the pool..good thing was that i am able to take my own sweet time to dry and change my clothes after i was baptised.but the bad thing was ..hee i am the no 31 to be baptise..so meaning ...the water is hee use by 30 people before my turn..oh no...hope it's still clean..(yup and it is..)..anyway..the bible also say that " the first is the last..the last shall be the first.." so..hee i am the first..joking..

The water was super cold and the whole "process" took less than 10 min..i was down in the pool after two question and i could hear the "watery" sound when i was in the pool.Anyway..hee they say baptism is like wedding..indeed..it does when they asked two question before they actually baptise me..like wedding where the pastor will ask question before exchange of ring etc..haha...anyway after being baptise, i got the certi n prayer from pastor...hee a very nice certi...and soon after i went to meet my cell group and spiritual sisters.. and my friends(siling was here =]) from QQS and TYA...thank GOd for their presence to witness the event...though quite upset when some of my friends couldn't make it on that day..the most important things is the significant of getting baptise..and i am glad that i have been baptise..after 6 years being a "no name christian"..now i can say that i am a christian from FCBC..no longer a baby but a woman rising up in God's calling...and I am called Gabriela..meaning God is my strength..and I want to continue believing that he will be my strength..remind myself not to always depend on myself..

And soon my test come.. I need to fund raise $625 for QQS trip..oh no..got to prayer for sponsor..and even find a full time job to raise the rest of the amount..cos we are suppose to raise half the amount and pay the rest of the amount ourselve..hmm..I got to pray hard for sponsor...But I know God will provide sponsor and a job for me to cover my trip for QQS as well as other expenses...Hmm a time to really rely on God's strength... anyway below are some photos taken on the baptism day..with young arrow club member( they are so cute right..) with my friends and family..and the gifts(..really like them all),cards( thanks for all the encouraging message) and flowers they buy for me..( i don't know when i start loving flower...)haha...

Sad news working last day at TOUCH childcare this wed..It's hard to say goodbye..but i have to...i am going to miss the k1 and T class kids ( especailly lincoln,erza( who like to kiss and hug me),ee jin,wei jun,ryan(who like to call me ms koh ms koh),.. and eason(handsome one who i like to play with..)sean( the smily boy), jaden and wei jun( the cue and obedient boy)..hee most of them is boys haha ..there are many more..no ..hee i wish to list them all...)and ms ong..got to miss working with you ..and sorry cannot help and assist you in TOUCH le..but I know God will be there to protect and help you..Got to update me about the kids next time =]...Hee I am going to buy their class photos..though a bit sad cannot take photo with them..but hee at least can take their photos...

well next..hee anyway another good news is i am going to hougang club (TYA)...though a bit upset because I just got to know the rest of the club memebers in serangoon club.. and they have a very sweet leader (fidelia)..but i guess..everything is plan for a good reason...hougang club is starting their registration the coming sat..and offically open in july..so still got 2 more months in serangoon club..btw hougang club is so near my house haha..yeah..no need to scare being late for club..hopefully God i can be a useful vessel for you...

Today psalm 119..it's the longest psalm..two words caught my attention : precepts and statutes...since most of the verses in psalm 119 mention this two words...

statutes
v2 -Blessed are they who keep his statutes,and seek him with all their heart.
v14-I rejoice in following your statutes,as one rejoices in great riches.
v22-Remove from me scorn and contempt, for I keep your statutes.
v24-Your statutes are my delight; they are my counselors.
v31-I hold fast to your statutes, O LORD; do not let me be put to shame.
v36-Turn my heart toward your statutes,and not toward selfish gain.
v46-I will speak of your statutes before kings and will not be put to shame,
v59-I have considered my ways and have turned my steps to your statutes.
v80-May those who fear you turn to me, those who understand your statutes.
v95-The wicked are waiting to destroy me, but I will ponder your statutes.
v99-I have more insight than all my teachers, for I meditate on your statutes.
v111-Your statutes are my heritage forever; they are the joy of my heart.
v144-Your statutes are forever right; give me understanding that I may live.
v146-I call out to you; save me and I will keep your statutes.

precepts
v4 -You have laid down precepts,that are to be fully obeyed.
v15 -I meditate on your precepts and consider your ways.
v27-Let me understand the teaching of your precepts; then I will meditate on your wonders.
v45-I will walk about in freedom, for I have sought out your precepts.
v56-This has been my practice: I obey your precepts.
v63-I am a friend to all who fear you, to all who follow your precepts.
v69-Though the arrogant have smeared me with lies, I keep your precepts with all my heart.
v78-May the arrogant be put to shame for wronging me without cause; but I will meditate on your precepts.
v87-They almost wiped me from the earth, but I have not forsaken your precepts.
v93-I will never forget your precepts, for by them you have preserved my life.
v94-Save me, for I am yours; I have sought out your precepts.
v104-I gain understanding from your precepts; therefore I hate every wrong path.
v110-The wicked have set a snare for me, but I have not strayed from your precepts.
v159-See how I love your precepts; preserve my life, O LORD, according to your love.
v173- May your hand be ready to help me, for I have chosen your precepts.
v168-I obey your precepts and your statutes, for all my ways are known to you.

Actually there are many other verse with the two words..but i just get a few verses from there...hee i don't actually know the meaning of precepts and statuses so i went to look at other version of bible online...

Precepts: 训词 (God's commandmant)
Statutes:法度 (A decree..)

Well..from the other version they taught me statutes is to be heard, receive, love, and obeyed..hmm loved them?!!..sometime we find it hard to obey his command hee now we are told to even love them..it's a big challenge =]..but I learn from.. Psl 119 is the important of walking with the lord...your walk with the lord..= your understanding of his words..his command...and even the heart of obedient you have ...if you choose to walk with the lord..you will listen and read/keep his words..you will know his commandmend..mediate on his words..so that when wicked try to deceive you..when satan try to temp you..when you are lost..you know and can stand firmly saying God's words to defend yourself from any evil attack..This psl teach me the important of reading God's words and being obedient to him...it's not easy..but when we seek him and put him first before anything..there is comfort, joy, hope, promise, peace...(see psl 119)..his word is a light upon our path..psl 119 teaches the important of his words ..and i believe many other things else..

My formular...
Fear the lord + Love the Lord = Seek + Obey His Words and Command
Seek + Obey His Words and Command = Hear + Receive + Read + Love + Meditate in His words
Words = Light (Light = Joy + Peace + Comfort + Hope + Truth + Freedom + Strength) -
Darkness(Darkness = Sins + Lies + Anger + Disappointment + Worries + Sadness)

hmm..this sunday ..pastor teaches about fear the lord...got to go online listen to it =]..

A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one. ..mind your words =]

2008-04-27T22:31:00.000-07:00

Saw this interesting story on my friend's blog could like to share this too...

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper.

His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the 1 day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that theboy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence He said, 'You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one.

You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say 'I'm sorry', the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.

'You serve what you fear...'

2008-04-20T04:09:00.000-07:00

'You serve what you fear...'..What an interesting but true statement. If you are fearful of poverty, you work hard and really hard for money..and you become servant of money...so who then is your master?..There are so many fearful things in this world..poverty,sickness,loneliness,emptiness and etc..only God's amazing grace help us to pull through and overcome all this fear..so that we can be total set free from all bondages and fear...

Human fear the uncertain things...the things that might happen to them..and only the prince of peace...he can bring peace and the real freedom ..being a christian might not be easily...that's why some human ask for"break"..which is so called little freedom..but we might not know such freedom might bring conquences..like what psl 2: 12 say.."Kiss the Son, lest he be angry, and you perish in the way"...

Kiss is an act of submissive to the Lord..the highest authority..cos if we choose to lead our rebellion way..we might end up like what psl 2:12 says..destroy by our own way...

Last friday hear from roxanne shall about the senior pastor in mongolia..and when i see the newspaper a church that teaches wrong things and cause harm to GOd's people..I feel heartbroken for these people..May God bring justice to them...indeed it's true that man can be sucessful in things that they do by their own strength..like getting money..disciple...however sin can destroy them all..And only God's grace and relying on him and his word that we might not be fall in satan's trap..

We are having a war..not against flesh..but against the evil spirit...we need God's strength and power to overcome all these..I pray for protection for my family, cell group and even friends in church that they will not be deceive by satan..

My sister share with me how satan can even use bible words to deceive Jesus..Satan's Temptation of Jesus (Luke 4:1-13)in this book of luke..Satan's challenge Jesus saying this.."If You are the Son of God, throw Yourself down from here. For it is written: 'He shall give His angels charge over You, to keep You,' Yup..the bible in psl 91:11 'For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;' In this story..satan challenge jesus that if he is jesus he can command angel to come to guard him since the bible say so..in this case satan can challenge us by saying words like "you see the bible say jesus send angel to protect you but you see what your lfie is now..."

this is why it's important to have a balance meal(bible). Yup the bible did say that not only in luke but in psl...and it's important not just to read one verse from the scripture but the one before and after the scripture...yup Jesus can send or even command angel to guard us..but in this psl 91:11..there is a condition word"for"..if we read the eariler scripture..

9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-

10 then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.

11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;

So if only if you make the most high your dwelling...then...for..(since you make him your most high..) he will command his angel to guard you...

Wow..when my sister share this with me..i see how satan can use bible words to deceive us..so it's important not only to have a balance meal (bible) it's important to ask the HOLY SPIRIT to guide us when we read the bible..we might not know when we hear the wrong voice..interprete the wrong meaning and even bible words..(HOLY SPIRIT..must guide me k..)

Yup..Roxanne want us to do reflection..on God's grace...yup..i admit that God is graceful to me...like i did badly and get in rp..i got to meet friends who are so much to me...like i was once very sick to the point where i lose my job..by his grace..he provide me financially..that i able to find rest..that make me know money and everything (tem things) don't last forever...by his grace ..I got a tem job in TOUCH childcare when the outside world requires diploma in early childhood to get in..by God's grace..each time my pocket went empty..he will provide $$..by his grace, I was given opportunity for things that i want to do..given things that i want ..that when my da jie ask me what you want for baptism gift..i ponder and think yup..God has bless to to the point i don't know what i need ...thank God for his grace...that i am baptise on the coming friday..if i am given chance to share on stage my testi..then it's also god's grace... so will like to share this powerful song..it was not really special to me till today..i was amaze by the lyric...his grace that can set anyone free..isn't it amazing..?
Amazing Grace Lyrics
John Newton (1725-1807)

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis Grace that brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me.
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

When we've been here ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

Update UpdaTe..

2008-04-10T04:23:00.000-07:00

Just in case people thought I went missing in blogger...Here I am...Well these few days I am really busy with quite some stuff...some transition and etc..Update on what i have been doing for the past weeks...well..I am still at hougang childcare as the assistance teacher till the end of april..now i am in toddler class..unbelievable ? hee i do agree with that..this is one of the transition for me after staying in k1 for two month..at first i was not really used to the kids being too obedient..the things being located so differently..the "lifestyle" and "habits" the T-class kids have as compared to the K1. Well I am say that I really miss the K1 class a lot..though they are really naughty kids..I guess I am a bit irony with my statement..well having with T-class this few weeks teach me how to handle kids that don't really able to express..toilet habit and handling their diapers..quite different from K1 class...

Next update ..I has just taken my NIE EPT test..well I guess the chances of me passing the test is 40/100..unless by God's grace ..It's actually not a difficult test..but i just don't know why I did not do my best for the test ..yup and I will only know my result in a month time..interesting isn't it..so meanwhile got to pray hard that I can make it...

Important highlight for this post to everyone who is reading my blog:
I AM GETTING BAPTISE IN 25 APRIL 2008.. Ok so you see this message which means you have to come to my batpism hee..so cancel your dates..appointment..kk...

VENUE : BUKIT MERAH TCT
DATE & TIME : 25 APRIL 2008 ,7 PM
So really hope to see all my friends being there to witness this important ocassion for me.well still thinking of my baptism name too..last week pastor's sermon talks about "going from strength to strength.." psl 84..And the word "strength" really caught my attention..I hope I can rely on his strength in all things ( cos my pride will always tell me..I can do everything by myself..) and I hope I can grow from strengh to strength till appear before God in Zion..Hope my faith and trust in God can grow from strength to strength even when times are bad or hardship and trial strike ..I hope I can still sing and praise his glorious name...I like the verse below..strength is having faith in God..I hope I can apply what I do see ...

Next update..recently really busy with gathering (both QQS and TYA)..Suddenly two gathering in a single day..well it's so coincidence..and we have to go for both the gathering..one was at magic box and the other was at vivo one of the private housing bbq pit..Well I do feel weird initially when I need to hang out with people whom I am not so close with..but then I must say that really blessed to know more people in the gathering..

Eariler on in the afternoon we were having service learning training for QQS...well one of the story really touched me and I do wonder if I can be a special someone to the kids too - one day.. My learning for the story.."To give up on teaching English and Math..And teach the children.."Teaching is about imparting life to the children..making a difference in their life..I am currently a childcare teacher and a math tutor for k1 and P4..I hope not only am I able to teach them ABC..12*12..I hope I can be the teacher whom they can share their things/problem with me..Though I didn't admit..I must say that I really like the children hugging me and calling me "miss koh..miss koh" or saying " miss koh I really like you.." this affirm me and really motivate me to teach...Actually when teaching the P4 girl tutor, my mind was just for the sake of getting more allowance for my living..However, I remember the sec lesson when the girl told me," miss doreen, I really enjoy your lesson.." My heart really touched and I see that no I am not doing this for only money..I really like teaching her too...though sometime i really seek God's wisdom for the knowledge...Thank God for these opportunity..One of my goal is to be a teacher in my priamry school..cos I remember how my two teacher impact my life most when i was in primary school..I want to be like them when I go back to teach in xinmin....

Well and very soon..I am going to lan zhou..to teach english haha.. in july..look forward for that..and hope i can impact lives too...I love kids haha....

Good Bye RP...Graduation Day

2008-03-27T08:46:00.000-07:00

Hee 26 Mar my graduation cermony..have to wake up very early..was quite unluckly when I suffer from eye infection in the morning..thus got to go 24 hr clinic see a doc and get treatment and took a cab down to RP since I was getting late..But thank God manage to reach on time.My sister, mum and dad were with me on the cermony..the cermony starts at 9 and one by one the school of IT student went up on stair to get their cert..it ended around 10 plus where me took the opportunity to take photos with my friends..time flies..and i thank God for being in RP..for the past three years I really enjoy the times in RP..though there are hard times (FYP,RJ,UT etc..) but there are good times that I have spent with my friends..to all my RP friends a big thanks for being there in my three year of life in RP..when will we meet again ...=] Below are some photos taken and a song I will like to share with my fellow friends...

Vitamin C -Graduation(Friends Forever) Lyric..

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

We were the reason...

2008-03-23T09:01:00.000-07:00

Thank God for Good friday..for he is dead and rose again on high..we praise you for all you have done..May the lord be our source of comfort in hard time and strength in trials..cos he loves us...He is my strength and my portion forever..no matter what ...=]

We were the reason ..

As little children
Be the dream of Christmas morn
And all the gifts and joys
We know we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

Chorus:
We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
Jesus suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung dying in the rain
Because of love, because of love, because of love.

Chorus

Everytime I see the cross
I'm reminded that he gave his life for you and me.
We are the reason that he gave his life,
we are the reason why the Lord suffered and died.
To a world that was lost he gave all he could give,
To show us the reason to live.
We are the reason but he is the reason we live
thank you my Jesus
thank you my Jesus

The Transforming Power Of Intimacy...Running back to God..Is your faith dying ?

2008-03-17T04:21:00.000-07:00

Pastor sermon...speak to me...to get close to God..enter to his presence..we need to recover from the lost of faith..Life goes up and down and many things do affect us ...Recover from the lost of faith..the key to get back to God to be intimate with God..I must admit that some situation do cos me to stumble in trusting in God..But God love us and want us to know how to recover from the lost of faith..

2 keys..
Recongise the source of problem..be honest..
Return to seek presence of God..be humble...

Recongise the source of problem -why we stumble ?
-Envies of others..
-Disappointment with God..

I must admit that there are times I do envy others ...Actually in my heart I do want to go to university..apply for NUS, NTU..but due to my financial difficulties,I didnt even think about apply it with study loan..My dad couldn't wait for me to get a job to clear his debts..but till now I am also in debts with bills..(mobile..medical..)and I am only a temp in chilcare ..the pay was not very high since I do lack of experience..but it was not easy to find job these days even my friends encounter problems too..I envy those who have no worry of finance problem and can just apply the course in university that they wanted..I envy those who are eligible for NIE..I wanted to go for NIE..but chances was slim...I envy those who are in good health condition ..I am tired of doing check up and test..though i am getting used to it..I envy those who seem carefree can do what they want..learn piano..etc..I always want to learn piano..dance..but not now..Like what pastor says..Some do think "God I feel tired and even the effort I put in doesn't make any difference , where is my blessing..your promises ? "..God I am disappointed times where I don't see break through..I run in circle..I cannot see light..God I feel like giving up...

Pastor share a story of a father who lose his faith when his son who suffer from leukemia does not get healing despite the prayer and things that the father had done..Unlike his father, the son actually told his father.."don't lose faith dad.." The son was the one suffering from all the treatment and etc but he could still tell his father not to give up..no..never..

QUestions that I trigger my thinking ...
Being a christian for sometime..is your faith dying ? Is your life battery running low? Is your walking with God getting further ?Is prayer and worship a flawless performance ? Is going to church..cell group a regular routine ? Is your heart harden..? Is the love fade ? Is the trust gone ? What is God to you ? What is his love for you ? What has Jesus do? Have you taken it for granted ?

Nexzt pastor share that knowing the source of problem is not enough we need to
Return to seek presence of God..return to his sanctuary ...psl 73 v17.."until I went into the sanctuary of God..then understood I their end. "..sanctuary is not just the church..it's ourself..we ourself are the temple of HS..the sanctuary is to seek God's presence not doing everything or controlling everything by ourself..surrender everything to God that include envy of other ..feeling ..disappointment ..only when we enter into his santuary..conclusion..confession and conviction enter our life..

Enter into santuary is to return to God in humbility an act of surrendering..I guess I have not enter into the santuary due to my own pride of living and ruling things myself.,.though i can settle everything..which lead me to tireness..convert human thinking(own feeling)..to spiritual thinking..

I was reminded by pastor of the story ..the footprint..God has been carrying this man who though GOd has forsake him when in times of trouble..psl 73v
23 Nevertheless I am continually with thee:thou hast holden me by my right hand.
24 Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.

God never let go..have we choose to let go of his hand..?God is always speaking..are we the one having problem hearing him ?...

Last but not least, the verse that I need to remind of myself ..
25 Whom have I in heaven but thee?..And there is none upon earth that I desire besides thee.
26 My flesh and my heart faileth:but God is the strength of my heart,
and my portion for ever.

I guess...Santification is indeed a prefect time for me to reflect...What have I been doing ? Have I been serious with Him ? My heart(love)..my faith..my trust in Him..where ?

Last but not least, share this song sing by pastor..(hope he sing very very very well hee..)

Title : I’d rather have Jesus

I’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold;
I’d rather be His than have riches untold;
I’d rather have Jesus than houses or lands;
I’d rather be led by His nail-pierced hand

Refrain:
Than to be the king of a vast domain,
Or be held in sin’s dread sway;
I’d rather have Jesus than anything
This world affords today.

I’d rather have Jesus than men’s applause;
I’d rather be faithful to His dear cause;
I’d rather have Jesus than worldwide fame;
I’d rather be true to His holy name

He’s fairer than lilies of rarest bloom;
He’s sweeter than honey from out the comb;
He’s all that my hungering spirit needs;
I’d rather have Jesus and let Him lead

God if I do think you are more than important and enough for me..I could not have envy..i could not have desire for other things..i might not have fear..worry..feel unjust or disappointed..God I must and have to reflect...Coming back to the heart of worship..trust in his Heart...=] I still love you Lord..no matter what..though my love for you might not be as much as you do...But hope these little effort you will not despise...

True or not ?

2008-03-11T02:52:00.000-07:00

At a cross road ..

2008-03-06T03:21:00.000-08:00

I have been working in TOUCH childcare for nearly a month and I am thinking if i should continue to stay and to take their course in order to be a qualified childcare teacher or to move on to other jobs...Well, I must admit that a childcare teacher is not an easy job (depending on the age group that you teach). I was assigned to K1 which i heard from the teachers how naughty they are..There are times they do make my heart boil, and times they do make me miss them and to feel upset too..Working with little children can be a joy and a big disaster..But they are just innocent kids whom sometime seek for attention and afterall a care and concern is enough to make them smile. Beside teaching them ABC and 123, I do learn from them too.

Things I learn/observe from kids

1)Kids can easily say sorry and to forgive one another easily..(As one grow older, it's not easy to say "sorry" especially when we have Virus P(Pride) in our body.)

2)Kids are transparent in terms of expressing themselves- They cry when they want to, you can see their mood on their face (As one grow older, one tend to hide their feeling, often we try to put a smile in our face despite we are boiling inside the heart.)

3)"Teacher,she hits me..Teacher, she bully me"...Kids loves protection and attention (Adult do want to be protect and recongise by loved one but most of the time they will try to act "strong" saying I can protect myself..I don't need the attention..but deep inside you are thinking if anyone listening to me..Hee kids also like to complaint but that's one way they thought they can be protected.

4)Kids like surprise..and they are curious about new things.."Teacher what's this?..Teacher how come got this..?" When kids do explore to new things..the 4w1h will be the conversation with us..Well it's good to ask question but sometimes their why question can be written into assay...Recently we just show the kids how to cook spat( sorry in short) for lunch..you can see how their eyes can be glue to the pots and plates ..if only they can be this attentive when comes to teaching ABC...

5)Kids are good followers...When one kids in my K1 class come to me for first aids(since she has a little small cut on her finger..), almost another 1/4 of the class will come to me for first aids..be it mosquito bites or just a minor cut(which look like some injuries that occur two or three days ago..),they will just come for first aids because one kids has do so.It happens when one child come to me asking me to read a story book with her during teabreak, the rest of the children will come with a book asking me to read with them..so can i don't admit that they are indeed good followers ?

6)Kids love to be praise..I remember a few days ago i just praise a boy who have finished his work quickly, you will get to see three or four kids coming to you showing their work and saying "teacher see i also finish my work.." and the kids will just come one by one just to hear you say "good job...well done.."i think from the first week i started working there..these few words have been repeating like a tape recorder haha..I believe that adult also do like to be praise and recognise..but in a different way (like awards or bonus $$)...

Yup and there are many more observation and conclusion which i think i will take time to write it down..hee should i writea book on my one month journey with the little kids ? hee Anyway I do enjoy working there but my concern is the pay (which i think quite low as i need to support my family expenses, medical fees..bills), the job scope( I hate their bathing time)..some staff( they are unfriendly..)..but overall it's a "carefree" jobs since not much things to do just each and watch over them...(I am quite scare when they go for outdoor activities)but they are still kids afterall..some loving some headache..but to me they all deserve to be love and care for ..

But i am given one month to try this job and next mon will be my last day of work..so it's time to consider to stay or to move on ... God knows...=]

你愛永不變...Intimacy with God..a divine romance...

2008-02-28T00:18:00.000-08:00

"Do not let any worldly things distract or destroy the relationship you have with Me.." God indeed is a romantic and loving one ...I pray to get away from any distraction and away from anything that will hurt me..Sometime something just don't work the way we want to...Though in my heart, I should be happy about it..But compare with a long term joy, a short moment of happiness won't last and will slowly be part of memories..(Hee i guess some who read this blog their mind will be fill with question mark..)Anyway really love this two song...

你愛永不變

你流出寶血，洗淨我污穢
將我的生命贖回
你為了我的罪，犧牲永不悔
顯明你極大恩惠

我深深體會，你愛的寶貴
獻上自己永追隨
或傷心或氣餒
或生離或死別
願剛強壯膽永遠不後退

哦你愛永不變
從今直到永遠
深深澆灌我心田
或天旋或地轉
經滄海歷桑田
都不能叫我與你愛隔絕

I Just Want To Be Where You Are

I JUST WANT TO BE WHERE YOU ARE
DWELLING DAILY IN YOUR PRESENCE
I DON'T WANT TO WORSHIP FROM AFAR
DRAW ME NEAR TO WHERE YOU ARE

I JUST WANT TO BE WHERE YOU ARE
IN YOUR DWELLING PLACE FOREVER
TAKE ME TO THE PLACE WHERE YOU ARE
I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU

I WANT TO BE WHERE YOU ARE
DWELLING IN YOUR PRESENCE
FEASTING AT YOUR TABLE
SURROUNDED BY YOUR GLORY
IN YOUR PRESENCE
THAT'S WHERE I ALWAYS WANT TO BE
I JUST WANT TO BE
I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU

Hee sadly my guitar skill is not as good as chye hoon..she has the gift..And i just want to affirm her..she is my beautiful sister..indeed..with look, gift and talent of singing..what a good package..hee envy..

But i know God is fair..hee everyone is given different talent and gift..(hee hope my piano skill can improve faster...)

A heart of worship...in spirit and in truth...

2008-02-25T03:45:00.001-08:00

Last sunday sermon and altar call was really a touching one.. I like one of the song "A heart of worship"..indeed God does not want offering or scarifice but a heart of brokeness..indeed do not let sunday be a "flawless performance" ..We don't be a "sunday" christian ..I think this do reminded me of my walk with the Lord.. I must admit that i need God to create a pure heart..a heart that is after his Him..Help me God to be deeper in love with you...Let me do not shift from the left or the right..but to you God..help me...this is my cry..my one desire...is to be with you everyday of my life...closer and closer..hold me God n please don't let me go...change me..i want the world to know...fill my heart and make me clean..even though sometimes your ways i cannot understand..but i serve a God who is faithful and true and i will hide in the shelter of your wings...Lord consume me from the inside out as Lord i give you my heart and give you my soul..Lord even when the ocean rise and thunder roar,you will soar with me above the storm, you are the shepherd of my heart,so lord i pray you will take me deeper in love with you. Amen..

Well,i receive a mail from li wee about the 40 days prayer from precious moment yup..I must admit and repent for not being obedient in fasting.. Lord forgive me...=]

Before beginning his ministry, Jesus spent 40 days fasting and praying in the wilderness and was tempted by Satan. For Him it was a time of contemplation, reflection, and preparation. During the Lenten season, we have a chance to take some time ourselves to contemplate and reflect on our walk with the Lord, and prepare ourselves for what He has planned for us.

Lent, a season of prayer and fasting, begins 40 days before Easter (different churches may calculate the days differently) and is marked by Ash Wednesday. Ashes are a symbol of penance or mourning and they help can believers develop a spirit of humility and sacrifice. Biblical examples of the use of ashes are found in Esther 4, Job 42, and Daniel 9.

Although not all faiths observe the Lenten season, all believers can benefit from a time of contemplation, reflection, and preparation. As part of that, fasting--abstention from food, or any other temptation-- sacrificially giving something up for God may help believers to focus more on the Lord, what He is doing in their lives, and what one can, in turn, do for Him.

Everytime you want to do the something you sacrificed, you can think of that promise you made to God, and be reminded of the sacrifice Jesus made for you at Calvary.

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But when you fast, perfume your head and wash your face, So that your fasting may not be noticed by men but by your Father, Who sees in secret; and your Father, Who sees in secret, will reward you in the open.

--Matthew 6:17-18

It's 40 days of fasting and drawing near to God...

2008-02-19T03:48:00.000-08:00

Being a christian for 6 years, i must admit that i no longer feel the "first love" with God..Now it's a time to get back to the right relationship with God..Having intimacy relationship with God is a big challenge for me especially being a christian for some years..the passion for God might fade anytime..but God did not give up on me..thank you for his grace and mercy..

Recently I have difficulties trusting in Him...I always tell myself..when you dun hope for something, you will not get hurt from hoping for it..So i dun always hope for someone to do this and that cos i dun like disappointment cos i know man will disappoint..But God wun..but recap the scenario when i hope my dad accept christ last sunday when he attend church, we pray hard..but he didn't..I thought when we hope in the Lord, we can see miracle ??...Though i was abit upset but i know God has a prefect time..but when ? i dun noe...My trust "shaken" when my dad's illness did not get better..how will my dad think..will he trust God ?...God why not let my dad see the miracle? Actually,another reason for having doubt in God is due to my health ..same old problem occur and i start asking God why again? But the song "still" do remind me to be still and know he is God who will soar with me above the storm that i face..hope my dad knows..God says ."in all circumstance will you CHOOSE to TRUST in Me..and my Plans ?"..I tell God, I want but I can't..

So pastor say about this 40 days fast..meaning no TV, no game (no viwawa), and fast from a meal..to me..no game still ok..no TV (huh..) fast one meal (oh no..) hee..but i am trying to do all this with the right purpose..cos we have to be carefull not to fast for diet..fast b'cos pastor say so..but the reason behind fasting is because you WANT to be close to God..if not after 40 days we are still the same old person...
when you have a heart to walk close to God, 40 days is not a long days and hours fast for you cos you cannot wait for this opportunity to draw closer to God...When we are close to God, wehave no fear, no doubt, no emptyness..which till now i have yet overcome...

Here could like to share two songs

STILL - Hillsong

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

Great is the Lord( thank God it took me sometime to find this lyric online..)

GREAT IS THE LORD AND MOST WORTHY
OF PRAISE
THE CITY OF OUR GOD,
THE HOLY PLACE
THE JOY OF THE WHOLE EARTH.

GREAT IS THE LORD WITH WHOM
WE HAVE THE VICTORY
HE AIDS US AGAINST THE ENEMY
WE BOW DOWN ON OUR KNEES.

AND LORD WE WANT TO
LIFT YOUR NAME UP HIGH
AND LORD WE WANT TO THANK YOU
FOR THE WORK YOU'VE
DONE IN OUR LIVES

AND LORD WE TRUST
IN YOUR UNFAILING LOVE
FOR YOU ALONE ARE GOD ETERNAL
THROUGHOUT EARTH
AND HEAVEN ABOVE.

Next sharing..friday got cell group and Rox gives each one of us a bouquet of flower hee i cannot remember what is the name of the flower that i choose..but it blossom well and you can see from the photos ..hee

Saturday went to QQS (Qian Qian Shou) briefing with yizi and we were gald we get our first choice to Lan Zhou..well i heard that by the time we went there to serve it will be summer meaning the weather will be super hot..and hear the toilet condition is not going to be very good..so good luck to us..the briefing quite short..hee each member has to volunteer do something and i choose first aids hee..so got to go first aid training...next the air ticket and stuff we were need to do fund raising and since we are working adult this means we got to raise 50% ofthe fund and 50% pocket money..anyway look forward to the SL training and FA training

So after the briefing, we went to walk around clarke query and eat the turkey ice cream well the ice cream man from turkey..friendly and play trick with me hee..that's his style of selling ice cream..then we walk to river hongbao and were glad to be able to watch the chingay performance..so took some photos...

that's all to share..hee

Happy Valentine...To all my dearest friends..

2008-02-14T09:11:00.000-08:00

Hee..this year valentine got to spend my first half of the day in childcare taking care of the k1 and k2 children..the next half of the day i am glad that i am able to meet eileen for dinner ...who say friends cannot celebrate valentine..hee well..i thank her for giving a nice chocolate as a meet up gift..and i didnt forget to give something in return to mark our friendship hee...well we went to esplande go eat happy pot..the food was not bad..price ok..nice soup except the long waiting hours...after that we go walk around and we did saw a lot of couple hee at the root top of esplande building..it was amazing to see a sun flower in a midst of brushes at esplande so me and eileen took photo with the sun flower haha..After that we went to visit mr merlion where we get to see the old puppet show near esplande so we went to take some photo with the cute puppet since we hardly see it in SIngapore hee.. below are some photos taken in esplande =]

After that we went to river hongbao take some photos and even got to sit on the merry go round (hee is actually for kids but the uncle let us sit..)well..hee anyway we went to river hongbao take some interesting photos before we went home to catch the last bus..below are some photos taken in river hong bao...

After so much fun ..it's time to go home..where we take photo of our valentine present ..

hee..i do enjoy myself today..hee hope next yr will be something different..hee hopefully by that time we hve find our own partner =]...To my dear husband..that is Jesus (in isaiah 5:5)..Happy Valentine Day..
P.S as promised..i have make eileen appear on magazine..hee hope she able to see on my blog =]

updates...

2008-02-12T01:59:00.001-08:00

Happy new year since today is still the "chu wu" of new year hee..well have been very busy for the past few days only manage to find time today to update things and stuff..first and foremost is an update of last two week events...hee 2rd of feb we went to serangoon visit the children from young arrow club..they were the age of primary 1 to primary 6 and it was different from Gkids as most of the children are not christian and their lesson are mostly from assessment books..and they need to do lots and lots of pages..hmm very different..well most of the volunteer are from pastor yc side I guess and the in charge happen to be leo's friend..concidence ah..anyway it's only the first day where i teach a primary one girl math..i think nowadays kids are getting smart and smarter..so yup that's the update of one event..joining young arrow and the orientation next next week..

Next hang out with my spiritual sisters to cineleisure to buy meilian's present..well we bought her a big pooh and bouquet of roses..she seemed to be touched on her birthday..yup and we went to take some photos there..hee quite funny pose..but i realise cai yun getting more and more photogenic and pretty....and li wee got her new cute hairstyle..she look so sweet hee..yizi..our sexy babe no need to say..below are some photos taken...l.

4 and 5th of feb went to do check up and test in polyclinic..hee most of the girls spend money on beautiful clothes and stuff..but me..i think more on check up and test..(touchwood..) but thank GOd i am okay ...everything is going to be okay...

6th feb new year eve..as usual eat reunion dinner with my family..nice and delicious food..hee but i got to wash up all the plates and bowls..(which i dun mind)...quite upset when i see my dad's finger went swelling..he seemed quite upset..but thank GOd as my dad actually did not reject our prayer and he let us pray for healing on that day..praise God..

8th feb went to yizi's house to get ang bao..hee suppose to go watch ah long pte ltd with them..but amazing the near by cinema all full house..so we went to river hongbao and watch firework..guess what i went to play or rather sit on this ride name "top gun"..i think is because i am too skinny or the impact was too strong..i almost fly out of my seat..but thank GOd i didn't..it was fun but dangerous meh..

9th feb went to celebrate mei lian's birthday..earlier on went to pastor lily house and it was a clear n nice place to stay haha..and got my favourite “baw gua”( ps if I spell wrongly)..After that went to yijing house..it was crowded with people..yup..and after that me and yizi went to pick mei lian up at her house..and we took a cab down to east coast and blindfold her as to lead her to the waraku where we celebrate her birthday..i can see that she looked very happy when she saw the pooh and the cake..hope she enjoy ..since this is her 21st birthday…

11th feb is my first day as an assistance childcare teacher..”amazed”should be the right word to describe how I feel about my first day..well it was not easy for me to remember every of the single kids name ..but I manage to remember some on the sec day..and to me it was like a “camp” for the kids in childcare centre..they have their lesson, have their lunch, nap time, bath time, activities and etc..first day we went for home visit to one of the kid’s house..well I do have some phobia went I see many kids in a house..the tragic is horrible..the whole living room was a mess and they even attack the bedroom..the kitchen..haha..wonder why people like to have more kids…anyway being a childcare teacher was like a part time nanny as if I was attending some before marriage kind of program where you learn how to handle children and etc..i wonder if I am able to take up the task for this one month hee…

After work went to meet nana to watch ah long pte ltd..suppose to go with ah wee also but she ended up staying at home since she wasn’t feeling well…so went to buy the tickets at amk hub and poor nana didn’t manage to buy her favourite tea egg..but a $8 popcorn and drink.well I must say it was a funny show..but more suitable for adult..and I mean mature adult..

12th feb – today went for any home visit to one of the kid’s house and as usual..they have their regular activities..but I went off early for medicial appointment..thank God the report shows that I am ok..except there are some minor health issue which I need to take care of..thanks all my friend (esp veron and wanlin hee really touched to see your concern through sms and hee you guys still remember I need to go check up today ..) and my sister yun and rox for their concern and sms…

Well for the next few days is going to be busy days for me too..13th feb after work might be going to prayer meeting..14th feb a date haha…15th feb cell group…16th feb QQS orientiation..yup and guess what ..my first mission trip is in lan zhou..yeah…hopefully able to be a blessing over there…

每次回忆每次回应是刻骨铭心...

2008-02-03T20:48:00.000-08:00

Heard this song from a blog which my cell leader recommend..it's a powerful song written by one of the fcbc member and he is one of the facilitator from RP who has taught me culture in my year 2 sem 2..amazing concidence...anyway..it's a nice and great song...sing by wonderful singer joyce and david..joyce has a great voice...hope you all will enjoy this song and see the lyric..it's amazing how God use people...

刻骨铭心

God's temple...are you taking good care of it ?

2008-01-31T00:11:00.000-08:00

"Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him, for God's temple is sacred and you are that temple."..1 cor 3:16

A lesson learn for today..take care of your body before anything happen to you..Recently having a bad back pain..somemore is at the side..so went to see doc and she suspect got something and thus need to go further check up on mon and tue..though i must admi that for these days i do experience fear and worry..I thank God for the peace he give, for the comfortand prayer he give from the close one..GOd has been loving and he indeed comfort me..But i must confess that i have not been taking good care of my body..be it wat i eat,wat i did..lack of sleep etc..sorry GOd i did not take good care of my body ..sorry for not taking good care of this temple..And for sinning when i shouldn't...help me to be free from sickness and not walk in circle..cos i know i can trust in you when i choose to trust in you.. GOd is faithful and i know it's a period of trial which i can get over..and to see rainbow after the storm..see myself ?? hee...

SCORPIO WOMAN

2008-01-30T19:44:00.000-08:00

Well as a christian we cannot believe in horoscope but this one do sound accurate in terms of the character of a scorpio woman...Read and see if you think it's like me haha...anyway...horoscope is something that one should not believe hee...

SCORPIO WOMAN

A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can
tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays
herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her
character.

A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident
and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think
she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social
acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and
childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make
mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong.

She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have
power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret,
so you will only see a cute woman. Everything she does will look good,
and she has all the women's tricks you can think of. She can
manipulate men without them knowing it.

If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you,
then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can
understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words
which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will
use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what
you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her
feeling.

She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom,
she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants
something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth
sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around
her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also
respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should
not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good
looking, strong and healthy man especially if she starts to compare
with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a
good career.

She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either
loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no
"may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw
things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get
accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just
your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as
her bad tempered.

Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be
long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili
again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may
say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or
wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become
a second wife, a mistress.

She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating
this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in
your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she
will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman.
Remember she has a temper of the shrew.

If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you
likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you
up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your
apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait
for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she
will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.

She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have
fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at
the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being
"Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small
salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver.
She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a
"Nobody".

If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will
excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do
not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to
pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.

I know You love me....

2008-01-30T19:21:00.000-08:00

At the cross by Hillsong

Oh Lord You've searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?(x2)

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done(x2)

And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?(x2)

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done(x4)

Valentine Day Promotion...

2008-01-29T19:53:00.001-08:00

Thinking of a gift for your beloved ones ? Need creative ideas for that special day...Here comes the help offer...for nice and flowers that worth the price..

please go to the link below :
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Below are some of the samples..which i think was nice...

And for a unforgettable valentine day they have a teams of angels to help you with decorate for that very day..hee sound good offer....

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2008-01-29T19:45:00.000-08:00

Psalm 30

I will exalt you, O Lord,
for you lifted me out of the depths
and did not let my enemies gloat over me.
O Lord my God, I called to you for help
and you healed me.
O Lord, you brought me up from the grave;
you spared me from going down into the pit.
Sing to the Lord, you saints of his;
praise his holy name.
For his anger lasts only a moment,
but his favor lasts a lifetime;
Weeping may remain for a night,
but rejoicing comes in the morning
When I felt secure, I said
“I will never be shaken.”
O Lord, when you favored me,
you made my mountain stand firm;
I was dismayed.
To you O Lord, I called;
to the Lord I cried for mercy:
“What gain is there in my destruction,
in my going down into the pit?
Will the dust praise you?
Will it proclaim your faithfulness?
Hear, O Lord, and be merciful to me;
O Lord, be my help.”
You turned my wailing into dancing;
you removed my sackcloth and
clothed me with joy
that my heart may sing to you and not
be silent.
O Lord my God, I will give you
thanks forever.

It’s a long and affirming poem in Psl 30.

“O Lord my God, I called to you for help and you healed me” v2. Recently, was rather upset with my health problem. I guess I have not been taking good care of myself..so I get sick again..got to go check up on mon and prayer hard that everything’s gonna be ok.. This verse reminded me to trust in the Lord and to call to Him for help during this difficult time believing that He will bring me out of the darkness and healed me. Thanks all my friends and spiritual sisters for their concern..I will continue to pray to get better.

“For his anger lasts only a moment,but his favor lasts a lifetime;” v5. “Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning” v5This verse reminded me of God’s mercy and grace…remind me of the song “amazing grace”.. Indeed God’s love and mercy is so much bigger than what I can imagine. I was think that God has been angry and disappointed with me times and times of my sins…but I get his affirmation once again that he loves me no matter what I have done. And Dr Gary has affirm me of God’s love for me too..Hmm I don’t know what to say..But be thanksful of His love and mercy for me when I don’t deserve it…

Just wanna share what I read in the Chinese version psalm and in the devotional book:
“有時遇見苦難如同大波浪，有時優愁丧胆几乎绝望，若把主的恩典从头数一数，必能叫你立时惊讶乐欢呼。” think about the times where God has bring miracle, grace and even forgiveness to you..when times are bad and you almost wanted to give up, think of the miracle that God has give you. You will be amazed and even affirm of his great power and this will indeed give you strength to pull through all hardship.. So when we experience or feel fearful of things, when we recalled how God has save and help us, we will not be afraid of darkness, we will indeed know that He is our source of help and comfort. In my difficult times right now, I hope that Lord, I will remember how much you have help me the last time and continue to hope and trust in you.

“You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy”v11. Indeed when we count the blessing and grace that God has given to us, and to trust in him in the very low moment, we can turn wailing into dancing and remove the sackcloth not being the slave of sickness, of money of the worldly desire but c;othed with joy , peace and contend. Sometime when we desire or expect much things in life, we live a life pursing things and not enjoying the moment..if you run ahead of the time, you will miss a certain period of it.. In a right time you will know what is the most important thing in life..it will no longer be what you have desire in the past..

Here I could like to share my favourite song. And hope I can write good songs/poem for the Lord too..

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My life is in you lord
My hope is in you lord
My strength is in you lord
In you it’s in you

I will praise you with all of my life
I will praise you with all of my strength

With all my life, with all of my strength
All of my hope is in you…

My life is in you lord
My hope is in you lord
My strength is in you lord
In you it’s in you

In you it’s in you..it’s in you…

is the new year atmosphere..

2008-01-27T17:39:00.000-08:00

Last friday went to meet my spiritual sisters for cell and we went to dhoby ghaut this fashion to hunt for new year clothes follow by having our dinner inside the shopping mall. After that, we went to shop around at dhoby ghaut..and we went to kovan "xing wang" for supper..yup new year atmosphere everywhere..and this year is mickey's year..so i went to take a picture with mouse( too bad not mickey..)Below are some photos taken at "xing wang" cafe...

Last saturday went to orchard hotel with wan lin and li wee to attend the teaching as a career seminar. We reached there at about 2 plus and was surprise to see a big crowd in the hotel. Despite the large crowd, we harldy see many students in the seminar except working adult..At about 3 plus the seminar started with welcome address and some important concerns in regard to teaching in NIE..There were two speaker who share about their teaching career..I learnt quite a lot from their sharing however I wasn't certain if I am able to get into NIE since I did not meet their requirement. But I tried my luck to sign up and apply for the test hopefully if is GOd's calling, I will be able to get in...So after the seminar we took some photos..(any way the toilet was nicely decorated with new year atmosphere haha)..and i must praise the pianoist..he played a fantastic piece..if only i could play as good as he did...below are the photos taken during the seminar...

Live the dream...

2008-01-23T19:26:00.000-08:00

Got this email from my friend, i think was amazing see how people pulll through despite of hardship and trial..I am amaze by their performance and their "never say die" spirit..And the story goes...

The lady in her 30s was a dancer and was trained as one since she was a
little girl. Later she got into some kind of accident and lost her entire
left arm. She was depressed for a few years. It seemed that someone asked
her to coach a Children's dancing group. From that point on, she realized
she could not forget dancing. She still loved to dance. She wanted to
dance again. So she started to do some of her old routines. But by her
losing an arm, she also lost her balance. It took a while before she could
even making simple turns and spins without falling. Eventually she got it.

Then she heard some guy in his 20s had lost a leg in an accident. This guy
also fell into the usual denial, depression and anger type of emotional
roller coaster. She looked him up (seemingly he was from a different
Province) and persuaded him to dance with her. He had never danced. And
to dance with one leg? Are you joking with me? No way. But she didn't give
up. He reluctantly agreed. ' I have nothing else to do anyway.' She
started to teach him dancing 101. The two broke up a few times because the
guy had no concept of using muscle, control his body, and a few other basic
things about dancing. When she became frustrated and lost patience with
him, he would walk out. Eventually they came back together and started
training. They hired a choreographer to design routines for them. She
would fly high (held by him) with both arms (a sleeve f! or an ar m) flying in
the air. He could bend horizontally supported by one leg and she leaning on
him, etc. They danced beautifully and they legitimately beat others in the
competition.

I would like to share with you this most magnificent and touching
performance I have ever seen! It is a living proof that strong spirit can
conquer any physical limitations! View the performance at this...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LnLVRQCjh8c

In everything..in every circumstance..i choose to trust in you...

2008-01-23T17:24:00.000-08:00

Yesterday FYP presentation ..one word to describe everything..S**K..the evaulator S**k..especially the stupid SIT assistance director...curse that he got stroke and never talk again..so mean..his words was insulting ..so what if you are a assistance director..just an ass lor...think so highly of oneself ..better go and look into the mirror again..si lao tou..F**k guy...hope he will choke to dead..and nobody even pay a visit to his funeral...ps i can't help getting angry whenever i mention him and rem what he say..i think can see from my expression...But he has arld assure us that we will get C..what to say..hopefully GOd will grant me miracle to score a B..praying hard for that..I know my team mates are angry and disappointed too..But we got no choice since it's arld over...So after that we go sushi resturant eat though is not a kind of thing to celebrate..but no matter how upset one still need to eat...so we waited at 3pm for the sushi buffet...and we take some picture at sushi resurant..

After that we go to arcade and "fa xie"..play car driving..basketball..etc..then went to veron house play mahjong..so good her mum let us bath in the her house and give free clothing..hee..anyway we play quite a few round and i only manage to win 3-4 rounds..but hee i get the most money..after veron..hhaha...it was fun...i wan to play again and get level up leh...

Anyway what ever pass is arld pass..no point looking or turning back..so just pray that miracle comes ..and i trust that God will bring justice to my FYP and give me grade that i deserve..

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

2008-01-20T23:02:00.001-08:00

You Are 65% Feminine, 35% Masculine

You are in touch with your feminine side.

Sensitive, intuitive, and caring are all words that describe you.

And you're just masculine enough to relate to both men and women.

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

Outing...and school....

2008-01-20T17:06:00.000-08:00

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Fri -After fyp meeting, went to cell group and surprise the girls..hee after that we went home and there was a long jam near eunos and the bus driver ended up remove the 55 signboard and just drop off passenger who is still inside the bus..haha the first time i ever met such a situation...

Sat- Last saturday went to career fair with veron, wan lin and wen hui. Hee sorry girls i was quite late and so i miss the breakfast session with them. Anyway we went to the career fair at about 11 am and thank goodness it wasn't as crowded as it is in the afternoon when we leave the fair. So we went to upload our resume, hunt jobs in the suntec convention hall and there were quite a sum of company involve in this fair like NTUC, health promotion board, MAS etc.. And we manage to leave our contact and resume in some of these company. So we went for job hunt for about 2-3 hours before we leave the fair and went for lunch at bugis..well jay chou's movie is coming soon and i think bugis has been very supportive toward the movie thus you can see poster and stuff almost everywhere..oh man..but i seriously dun like his hair and his style in that movie..anyway we went to eat in bugis food court at level 3..it has been a better place and environment as compare to the last time where it was at basement 1..so we go eat and after that we went to arcade and it was the first time i drive the "outstanding car" in the arcade with wan lin..hee after that we headed to bugis street and shop around that's where veron buy her beautiful earring ...hmm it has been a long time too since i wear long earring..after that we went to this fashion to hunt for new year clothes. hee and we try quite a few pieces before we actually went home..Suppose to go chinatown with my friends but some of them fall sick and need to stay at home..but i thank God for that period of time being able to spend sometime with my dad for dinner..hee anyway it was a great sat...

Sun - went to church for work at service counter.. it has always been enjoyable time working in church with doris or grace..Doris will ensure that you will not get hungry when working..Grace do give good advise and suggestion and she is super patient when training her staf..hee so after work, i went to bugis again with yizi and yun since yun need to buy her guitar string..after that we went to walk around before we went home..so that goes my sun...

Mon - Dun feel like coming school cos i wake up to see my right eye so red and feel so irritated ..but then after quite sometime, the redness it gone and so i head back to school got to reherse with my FYP on our presentation..sian ah still got two more days to FYP and tmr still got ut...sian ah...

Learning for today...

2008-01-17T18:37:00.000-08:00

Recently have been doing my bible reading time in the bus every morning and i thank God for that period of time..I get to know and enjoy reading the bible more and more..hee praise God cos i always like to read devotion books and etc more than the bible..but i am glad that during these few weeks i have been reading book of samuel and book of Chronicles(hee normally i prefer to read new testiment..) so it's amazing..all thanks to book of psalm that make me curious each time when they keep mention David and so i went to read the bible to find out who is David..hee and get to know David flee for his life twice (two men was after him in the different period of time (saul and his own son)..and in books of samuel and chronicles, there are other character and storys which is like watching "war" movie like lord of the ring lol..

Anyway,I saw this rather "wise" quotation which do make me reflect on my faith walk with the lord..

"We can preach our whole lives about You,
but do we really know You?
We can sing our whole lives about You,
but do we really know You?
We can teach the children, how to live their lives for Jesus,
but do you really know You?"
-Jason Upton(A christian musician)

Share/preach the good news, sing worship and praise to him, making disciple..
but before you can share/preach the good news, you need to know Him, understand Him but it's only when you love Him..you can know and understand and you will , you want to know and understand him ,there, you can do great things in his name..

'Love is the key language for all doors ( hearts of harden, of sadness)
You cannot preach/share to the people when you don't love them
Because is won't be a good testi..
You cannot sing praises and worship to Him when you don't love Him
Because is won't be a true worship..
You cannot teach or make disciple neither if you cannot even love them..
Because is won't be a real fellowship...
So what you mean when you say you love him ?
is it a three letter words that really mean from your heart..
or a kind of habit to praise/sing to him ...
Say what you really mean..
Cos He take it as what you mean...'

I believe that even the bible say "these three remain..faith,hope and love..but the greatest is Love.." 1 cor 13:13.. and God please teach me to love you and seek you and not on temporary things ..Help me to get closer to you and may you be the shield and always be ahead of me....

We appear in magazine..

2008-01-17T03:05:00.000-08:00

Ever dream of being the cover girl in a magazine ? hee..my friend taught me how..see below ..isn't it amazing..lol..friends who are inside the photo..dun be shocked =]

Vote for your favourite cover page lol...

A Psalm a day..lesson learnt from Psl 16..

2008-01-16T21:59:00.000-08:00

Today i could like to share my learning of Psl 16 to everyone who is reading my post..Psl 16 ...

Psalm 16

1.Preserve me, O God:
for in thee do I put my trust.
2.O my soul, thou hast said unto the LORD, Thou art my Lord:
my goodness extendeth not to thee;
3.but to the saints that are in the earth,
and to the excellent, in whom is all my delight.
4.Their sorrows shall be multiplied that hasten after another god:
their drink offerings of blood will I not offer,
nor take up their names into my lips.
5.The LORD is the portion of mine inheritance and of my cup:
thou maintainest my lot.
6.The lines are fallen unto me in pleasant places;
yea, I have a goodly heritage.
7.I will bless the LORD, who hath given me counsel:
my reins also instruct me in the night seasons.
8.I have set the LORD always before me:
because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.
9.Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth:
my flesh also shall rest in hope.
10.For thou wilt not leave my soul in hell; 1 Cor. 15.4
neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption. Acts 13.35
11.Thou wilt show me the path of life:
in thy presence is fulness of joy; Acts 2.25-28
at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.

Notice that i bold two verses in psalm 16. At first, it was just a normal verses for me in (psl 16:8-9). However,if you meditate on this verses carefully, it can be an important application towards life. I get my understanding from a devotion written by our chinese pastor. He explain what this two verses means and relate to life.

"I have set the lord always before me.."if the lord is first in your heart and mind..if he is place ahead of everything ( be it worry, concern, wealth and health..)
" he is at your right hand.. I shall not be moved. " why at the right hand? simply because in the past when isarelites go on war, they will bring a shield on their left hand and a sword at the right. this means that our right hand is vulnerable to any attack. if the lord is at your right hand, he will be the "shield" to protect you. This means that in life we are attack by satan especially in our weak point..( our weak point can be being timid, not knowing how to handle emotion..health and etc) allowing the lord to be "in front of" or to place the lord at our weak point, we can be protect against any harm or attack( since satan do know our weak point, we need the lord to protect us..)in our weakness, we find strength from the lord..in our weakness, GOd's grace and protection is given to us.

"Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoice,my flesh also shall rest in hope...."three important element of a human being - body(flesh), heart and soul(glory)is mention in this verse..the lord know the important element in us and it is only when we choose to set the lord ALWAYS BEFORE us ..then our heart will be glad, our soul wil rejoice and body to be healthy and secure..we know that if the lord is not in the central or the first place in our life, we can be easily attack by our enemy that's why we don't feel peace, we get sick, joy is based on circumstance and our heart is empty and not contend.

Is God the first place in your life ? Let Him be the ruler of your life.=]

Busy weeks ahead....

2008-01-13T22:31:00.000-08:00

My busy schedule ..after submission of FYP..busy week coming up...One way to remind myself to put it in blog..hee..and also for friends who are going with me to those events..these are the reminder...

15 Jan - Discuss FYP Presentation Slides in RP library. @ 5pm
16 Jan - Do FYP Presentation Slides in RP library meet @ 1 pm
18 Jan - Rehersal @ nana's classroom ( since it's empty)@ 5pm + Cell group
19 Jan - Morn going suntec career fair( * veron confirm the time)
20 Jan - Church + LOS/PE( i cannot go cos got work)
21 Jan -Rehersal @ nana's classroom ( since it's empty)@ 5 pm
23 Jan - Meeting 12 pm outside library ( going one of the classroom do discussion). After that at 3pm go eat sushi and 6 pm go veron house
25 Jan - Cell group
26 Jan - Going NTU talk ( 10 am - 2pm), Teaching seminar @ 2:30 Pm (orchard hotel)
** call to register for teaching seminar
** NTU talk i will help you all sign up ( meet 9 am boon lay mrt station)
27 Jan - LOS/PE lesson
29 Jan - Movie with Cell @ 6 plus (venue to be confirm)
30 Jan - Kbox @1pm meet at city hall mrt station
1 Feb - Cell group
2 Feb - NTU open house meet 9:30 am at boon lay mrt (Inform nana about this)
3Feb - SOL/PE
9 Feb- Mei Lian birthday( place to be confirm)

God's Rainbow

You won't believe this...first pregnant man ??

Bossa Nova Music

Pictures will speak for me....

Be fair to the ducks and geese... stop eating foie gras !

Are you aware of what is about to come ??

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Footprints in the sand....

Will you listen to the voice of truth ?

If ..only

You are faithful...

Flying with balloons ???

Get started ....

"it does not depend on man's desire or effort but God's mercy" Rom 9:16

What's your choice then ??

Have you trust Him enough ??

Back from camp ..

Live by faith and not by sight ...

You are my strength ..my all in all....

For you are faithful...my faithful God ..afterall..

Children are like arrows in the warrior's hand . .

Outing with colleague . .

And the truth will set you free.. .........i am free from now ...

God is the strength ...=]

Time for changes ...

No greater love than his....

☂ 愛情A至Z... ☂

New Year..New Strength..New Hope..

Prayer

Cross road ................

UPDATE =]

Jesus love the little children...

Finally got time to update..

Update update =]

Update update and more update...

Update part 2...

First day of work.

The God Chasers seminar with Tommy Tenney..

Cute comic ..hee

Science and God

Update update haha...

Baptism day - 28 April 200 8..Gabriela is my name=]

A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one. ..mind your words =]

'You serve what you fear...'

Update UpdaTe..

Good Bye RP...Graduation Day

We were the reason...

The Transforming Power Of Intimacy...Running back to God..Is your faith dying ?

True or not ?

At a cross road ..

你愛永不變...Intimacy with God..a divine romance...

A heart of worship...in spirit and in truth...

It's 40 days of fasting and drawing near to God...

Happy Valentine...To all my dearest friends..

updates...

每次回忆 每次回应 是刻骨铭心...

God's temple...are you taking good care of it ?

SCORPIO WOMAN

I know You love me....

Valentine Day Promotion...

有時遇見苦難如同大波浪，有時優愁丧胆几乎绝望，若把主的恩典从头数一数，必能叫你立时惊讶乐欢呼...

is the new year atmosphere..

Live the dream...

In everything..in every circumstance..i choose to trust in you...

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

Outing...and school....

Learning for today...

We appear in magazine..

A Psalm a day..lesson learnt from Psl 16..

Busy weeks ahead....

每次回忆每次回应是刻骨铭心...