Idiotic..this is the second time i write this post. Don't know what happen to the stupid blog..didn't save my previous entry..haiz got to retype again...

Recently,I am so tired both phyiscally and emotionally. During the cell group, thank God for his presence and his comfort. I am glad that during the worship, the lord actually prompt me,"'Cast your cares to HIM and he will take them ALL..'" and he even show cai yun the song, <>. I just cry to the lord, "no one understand me.." and thank God for his faithful reply, " my child- the burden you carry is too much for you, come to me and cast your cares to me, i understand. But are you trusting in me?". During the cell group, i just unload all my unhappiness, tiredness, worries and everything to the Lord.I can sense the Lord, his comfort and understanding..i know nobody understand but God knows all about me..

I think i am tired because having to work, to go school. to do project and also for other activities..this mean no rest day. In the past, during my weekend, i will touch my laptop and do my FYP and stuff..but for these weekend, i just dun or rather hate touching my laptop - i am so sick of school work and FYP. I just don't feel like touching them.. Physically having to do so many things do make me a little bit tired..in the past i am used to this kind of busyness..but now i guess i am drained..
I am sick emotionally - trying my best to love and care for people around me. I am tired of pleasing them, showing the care and concern they need and expect, tired of doing the talking.. Sometimes, i do really feel the needs to be alone..not because i don't like them..but i am just tired of always giving and when they set expectation which i cannot do.. I am a human, i am not God who love and care the same and forever. I need break and time to go to my private cave.

So for this period of time,friends, got to bear with my weird attitude..hee i think i really need sometime to be alone..in the bus.at home and spend some time with the lord..Friends, hope you all understand..of course will still meet for break and etc..but bear with me if there are time i just tell you all i need to be alone...GOd will surely regain my strength and i will be okay ...