*.* Time for changes ... *.*
God has been good to me..showing me mercy and grace at all time..giving me strength when I am weak..helping me with difficult things at work..even for G12 conference, he blessed me with wonderful message from pastor nina..change of heart...in Ezekiel 36:26-27 "I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws." ..these words strike my heart..as i realise as time flies.. my heart turned hardened and cold towards God, the children, people and even my life.. perhaps I am at a point of my life where I really need to sit down and think about how I have been spending my life for the past months and how i should re-adjust before I can moving on..One thing i am really sure of ...is that I need to return to cross again..return to the passion i used to have for him and his people...not doing things on my way or to please people..not surviving but truly living in his purpose..I know i need to seek his counsel and awake the holy spirit again... The lord spoke to me in Joel 2:13" Rend your heart and not your garments. Return to the LORD your God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and he relents from sending calamity."..I know that i need to empty the "space" of my heart that has been taken away with the lord-his words and love. I know there are actions that need to be taken in order to return to Him..however, sometimes we do struggle in carry out the actions..either we are too used to it that we can't change ..or we have yet surrender to God..I agree that the most difficult thing to change is to change oneself..we can come up with 101 excuse to explain why we can't change yet.. interestingly we will expect other to change...pastor say when one changes, everything changes..i believe that it takes faith for one to believe that he/she can changes..but like what the sermon says faith comes with action...so currently i am praying and seeking Him to guide me to change..I want to learnt to be obedience to Him..=]Change My Heart Oh God Change my heart oh GodMake it ever trueChange my heart oh GodMay I be like YouChange my heart oh GodMake it ever trueChange my heart oh GodMay I be like YouYou are the potterI am the clayMold me and make meThis is what I prayChange my heart oh GodMake it ever trueChange my heart oh GodMay I be like YouThis song is my prayer that the lord will change me..my heart...hmm recently was rather upset with my performance for piano class...didn't get the chords right..the rhythm right..try writing songs for Him..but then everything doesn't seem right...want to play well so as to worship Him..but it turns out to be a pressure and the motive went wrong...hope to take a break this week to sort things right again...also quite tired with work life... really hope to get back to school..to apply for a full time uni..but $ become the idiotic thing that stumble me ..but i am glad to have some of my colleague who are caring and thoughtful...i can't imagine how long i can be in the working life without them..hmm i got to cheer up cos i know there are exciting things ahead...and activities do cheer me up..recently went for chinese culture camp and BBQ with TYA kids...truly trained my patient with challenge kids..but i still love them..(weird) hee...yet to get the photos updated =]hmm,wanna share one of my favourite song and my prayer for the week..through this song...and my challenge is to play this songs in piano...Dwelling place -HillsongLovely are your dwelling placesThirsty I come after YouJesus my joy my rewardYour love's restoring my soulNow I'm Yours and You are mineAnd from my heart a song will riseI love you I love you I love youAnd my heart will follow wholly after youJesus there is none beside YouRighteous ruler of the earthNations will come and bow downName over all namesI sing You praisesAnd all that can say to You is… I needed Jesus @ | 1:17 AM
