Being a christian for 6 years, i must admit that i no longer feel the "first love" with God..Now it's a time to get back to the right relationship with God..Having intimacy relationship with God is a big challenge for me especially being a christian for some years..the passion for God might fade anytime..but God did not give up on me..thank you for his grace and mercy..

Recently I have difficulties trusting in Him...I always tell myself..when you dun hope for something, you will not get hurt from hoping for it..So i dun always hope for someone to do this and that cos i dun like disappointment cos i know man will disappoint..But God wun..but recap the scenario when i hope my dad accept christ last sunday when he attend church, we pray hard..but he didn't..I thought when we hope in the Lord, we can see miracle ??...Though i was abit upset but i know God has a prefect time..but when ? i dun noe...My trust "shaken" when my dad's illness did not get better..how will my dad think..will he trust God ?...God why not let my dad see the miracle? Actually,another reason for having doubt in God is due to my health ..same old problem occur and i start asking God why again? But the song "still" do remind me to be still and know he is God who will soar with me above the storm that i face..hope my dad knows..God says ."in all circumstance will you CHOOSE to TRUST in Me..and my Plans ?"..I tell God, I want but I can't..

So pastor say about this 40 days fast..meaning no TV, no game (no viwawa), and fast from a meal..to me..no game still ok..no TV (huh..) fast one meal (oh no..) hee..but i am trying to do all this with the right purpose..cos we have to be carefull not to fast for diet..fast b'cos pastor say so..but the reason behind fasting is because you WANT to be close to God..if not after 40 days we are still the same old person...
when you have a heart to walk close to God, 40 days is not a long days and hours fast for you cos you cannot wait for this opportunity to draw closer to God...When we are close to God, wehave no fear, no doubt, no emptyness..which till now i have yet overcome...

Here could like to share two songs

STILL - Hillsong

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

Great is the Lord( thank God it took me sometime to find this lyric online..)

GREAT IS THE LORD AND MOST WORTHY
OF PRAISE
THE CITY OF OUR GOD,
THE HOLY PLACE
THE JOY OF THE WHOLE EARTH.

GREAT IS THE LORD WITH WHOM
WE HAVE THE VICTORY
HE AIDS US AGAINST THE ENEMY
WE BOW DOWN ON OUR KNEES.

AND LORD WE WANT TO
LIFT YOUR NAME UP HIGH
AND LORD WE WANT TO THANK YOU
FOR THE WORK YOU'VE
DONE IN OUR LIVES

AND LORD WE TRUST
IN YOUR UNFAILING LOVE
FOR YOU ALONE ARE GOD ETERNAL
THROUGHOUT EARTH
AND HEAVEN ABOVE.


Next sharing..friday got cell group and Rox gives each one of us a bouquet of flower hee i cannot remember what is the name of the flower that i choose..but it blossom well and you can see from the photos ..hee





Saturday went to QQS (Qian Qian Shou) briefing with yizi and we were gald we get our first choice to Lan Zhou..well i heard that by the time we went there to serve it will be summer meaning the weather will be super hot..and hear the toilet condition is not going to be very good..so good luck to us..the briefing quite short..hee each member has to volunteer do something and i choose first aids hee..so got to go first aid training...next the air ticket and stuff we were need to do fund raising and since we are working adult this means we got to raise 50% ofthe fund and 50% pocket money..anyway look forward to the SL training and FA training

So after the briefing, we went to walk around clarke query and eat the turkey ice cream well the ice cream man from turkey..friendly and play trick with me hee..that's his style of selling ice cream..then we walk to river hongbao and were glad to be able to watch the chingay performance..so took some photos...







that's all to share..hee