Pastor sermon...speak to me...to get close to God..enter to his presence..we need to recover from the lost of faith..Life goes up and down and many things do affect us ...Recover from the lost of faith..the key to get back to God to be intimate with God..I must admit that some situation do cos me to stumble in trusting in God..But God love us and want us to know how to recover from the lost of faith..
2 keys..Recongise the source of problem..be honest..
Return to seek presence of God..be humble...Recongise the source of problem -why we stumble ?
-Envies of others..
-Disappointment with God..
I must admit that there are times I do envy others ...Actually in my heart I do want to go to university..apply for NUS, NTU..but due to my financial difficulties,I didnt even think about apply it with study loan..My dad couldn't wait for me to get a job to clear his debts..but till now I am also in debts with bills..(mobile..medical..)and I am only a temp in chilcare ..the pay was not very high since I do lack of experience..but it was not easy to find job these days even my friends encounter problems too..I envy those who have no worry of finance problem and can just apply the course in university that they wanted..I envy those who are eligible for NIE..I wanted to go for NIE..but chances was slim...I envy those who are in good health condition ..I am tired of doing check up and test..though i am getting used to it..I envy those who seem carefree can do what they want..learn piano..etc..I always want to learn piano..dance..but not now..Like what pastor says..Some do think "God I feel tired and even the effort I put in doesn't make any difference , where is my blessing..your promises ? "..God I am disappointed times where I don't see break through..I run in circle..I cannot see light..God I feel like giving up...
Pastor share a story of a father who lose his faith when his son who suffer from leukemia does not get healing despite the prayer and things that the father had done..Unlike his father, the son actually told his father.."don't lose faith dad.." The son was the one suffering from all the treatment and etc but he could still tell his father not to give up..no..never..
QUestions that I trigger my thinking ...
Being a christian for sometime..is your faith dying ? Is your life battery running low? Is your walking with God getting further ?Is prayer and worship a flawless performance ? Is going to church..cell group a regular routine ? Is your heart harden..? Is the love fade ? Is the trust gone ? What is God to you ? What is his love for you ? What has Jesus do? Have you taken it for granted ? Nexzt pastor share that knowing the source of problem is not enough we need to
Return to seek presence of God..return to his sanctuary ...psl 73 v17.."until I went into the sanctuary of God..then understood I their end. "..sanctuary is not just the church..it's ourself..we ourself are the temple of HS..the sanctuary is to seek God's presence not doing everything or controlling everything by ourself..surrender everything to God that include envy of other ..feeling ..disappointment ..only when we enter into his santuary..conclusion..confession and conviction enter our life..
Enter into santuary is to return to God in humbility an act of surrendering..I guess I have not enter into the santuary due to my own pride of living and ruling things myself.,.though i can settle everything..which lead me to tireness..convert human thinking(own feeling)..to spiritual thinking..
I was reminded by pastor of the story ..the footprint..God has been carrying this man who though GOd has forsake him when in times of trouble..psl 73v
23 Nevertheless I am continually with thee:thou hast holden me by my right hand.
24 Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.
God never let go..have we choose to let go of his hand..?God is always speaking..are we the one having problem hearing him ?... Last but not least, the verse that I need to remind of myself ..
25 Whom have I in heaven but thee?..And there is none upon earth that I desire besides thee.
26 My flesh and my heart faileth:but God is the strength of my heart,
and my portion for ever.
I guess...Santification is indeed a prefect time for me to reflect...What have I been doing ? Have I been serious with Him ? My heart(love)..my faith..my trust in Him..where ?
Last but not least, share this song sing by pastor..(hope he sing very very very well hee..)
Title : I’d rather have Jesus
I’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold;
I’d rather be His than have riches untold;
I’d rather have Jesus than houses or lands;
I’d rather be led by His nail-pierced hand
Refrain:
Than to be the king of a vast domain,
Or be held in sin’s dread sway;
I’d rather have Jesus than anything
This world affords today.
I’d rather have Jesus than men’s applause;
I’d rather be faithful to His dear cause;
I’d rather have Jesus than worldwide fame;
I’d rather be true to His holy name
He’s fairer than lilies of rarest bloom;
He’s sweeter than honey from out the comb;
He’s all that my hungering spirit needs;
I’d rather have Jesus and let Him lead
God if I do think you are more than important and enough for me..I could not have envy..i could not have desire for other things..i might not have fear..worry..feel unjust or disappointed..God I must and have to reflect...Coming back to the heart of worship..trust in his Heart...=] I still love you Lord..no matter what..though my love for you might not be as much as you do...But hope these little effort you will not despise...
